I think you're pretty brilliant, Leon. Because I didn't want to do it, but I'm too angry to be able to come up with coherent reasons why this sucks arse. So that you for spelling it out for me when I don't have the brainpower to do so. I don't want to change who I am. I like who I am and my music is a part of that. Dammit.
You don't sound like a dick, Leon. I am the last person who would think that anyway. Really really. I would not change my style, so I shouldn't change me either. I just...hate that this means either I leave the band or we all struggle until we find a label that will take us, flab and all. The fact that I am the only one they had an issue with does not help me though. I feel disgusting. I never felt like that until today. I always thought I was fine. Yuck oh yuck
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For your music, and your art, and how gutsy you are, how easily and strongly you love. And I don't think much of a record label who can't see any of that because they're too focussed on your belly. Somewhere along the way they've forgotten that it's supposed to be about music.
Lucky for the world there's still people like you and me.
I'm fond of who you are!! We can be fond of each other. That works for me.
I wish I could just brush this off as the bullshit it is. But I feel so goddamned ugly. I'm not going to change, but I can't help how gross it's made me feel.
Well maybe you shouldn't brush it off, maybe you need to seriously RAGE. Get out there, talk to people, call up the media, blog about it, go to open mic nights and recite angry beat poetry, whatever, get people to listen and get them as angry as you are. Use all the guilt and all the ugly and all the gross that they've thrust on you and use it to shatter something wrong with the world.
(Though at first I have to admit I thought you were going to tell me to lose weight even after all of this, so maybe I should get past the feeling guilty part first.)
I can try to shatter something that's wrong with the world. I want to.
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You don't sound like a dick, Leon. I am the last person who would think that anyway. Really really. I would not change my style, so I shouldn't change me either. I just...hate that this means either I leave the band or we all struggle until we find a label that will take us, flab and all. The fact that I am the only one they had an issue with does not help me though. I feel disgusting. I never felt like that until today. I always thought I was fine. Yuck oh yuck ( ... )
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For your music, and your art, and how gutsy you are, how easily and strongly you love. And I don't think much of a record label who can't see any of that because they're too focussed on your belly. Somewhere along the way they've forgotten that it's supposed to be about music.
Lucky for the world there's still people like you and me.
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I wish I could just brush this off as the bullshit it is. But I feel so goddamned ugly. I'm not going to change, but I can't help how gross it's made me feel.
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(Though at first I have to admit I thought you were going to tell me to lose weight even after all of this, so maybe I should get past the feeling guilty part first.)
I can try to shatter something that's wrong with the world. I want to.
After I curl up and die.
Not so strong right now.
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