I Don't Expect Too Many Responses, But Why Not...

[ruckinredhead]

As an anonymous reply to this post, I want you to ask me any questions you've been afraid to ask for whatever reason. That I'd be offended, angry, whatever. I won't know it was you. I'll answer them honestly. Even if it hurts. If you don't have any questions, feel free to make any comments you've been afraid to make. Again, I won't know it was you

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[scubasteve0209]

I posted this to Anneliese, but is seems wonky to post this while your journal is locked. kinda narrows down the anonymity.

[ruckinredhead]

good call...I hadn't even thought of that

[anonymous]

Did you ever think that your boyfiend is the one holding you back?

[ruckinredhead]

That thought has crossed my mind on multiple occasions. The circumstances surrounding his situation I can't help but attribute, at least some amount to our current position. However, I've made the choice to stay with him and suffer through whatever set-backs that may put upon us. I'm not where I want to be in my life right now, but in some ways I chose to be here too.

[tuffgirl52]

What is this game turning into an excuse to pick on Kevin?

[ruckinredhead]

Um...it was one question...and I answered honestly. That doesn't mean I'm picking on him and it's nothing he doesn't already know.

[anonymous]

Are you still going to the gym regularly?

[ruckinredhead]

LOL...yes, three days a week.

[anonymous]

Why can't you reconcile with Annaliese?

[ruckinredhead]

I wanted to and still want to, but when the initial fight happened, she decided to right me out of her life. I was willing from the get-go to chalk it up to a fight (cause friends fight; it happens) and get over it. Yes I was pissed and disagreed with her, but I wasn't ready to throw away a friendship over it. But when she said she didn't want anything to do with me anymore, well then there's not really much I can do about that. So though I don't really expect things to get patches, I've pretty much just been playing the waiting game. So..I guess I don't know why entirely, since it was her call.

[anonymous]

Saying you were ready to just chalk it up to friends fighting and that it was "her call" kind of makes it sound like it was all her fault (maybe that wasn't how you meant that to sound though.) But don't you think you share some of the blame and that you guys were a little rough? It seemed like she kind of got ganged up on and I know her feelings were really hurt by some of what was said about her.

[ruckinredhead]

I'm not placing blame on either party. It takes two people to fight, thats pretty simple. However, I am saying if it were up to me, we wouldn't have quit being friends. Yeah some people may have said some mean things to her, but I wasn't one of them. I defended my position, but never reduced to name calling or character defaming.

[anonymous]

Do you realize that your friends don't enjoy how out of control you get when you drink?

[ruckinredhead]

I've heard similar things before

[anonymous]

Have you ever thought about toning it down then? So more people would want to be around you?

[ruckinredhead]

Well, apparently whoever this is hasn't been around me drunk in quite some time, because I have toned it down. Not only in the fact that I don't have time to drink anymore, but in the fact that I don't drink that much when I do. On a very rare occasion will I get really drunk and usually it's because it's been so long. And besides, if people don't want to be around me, they probably weren't really my friend anyway.