Big Bird ( Read more... )

you made me smile and cry when i woke up this morning for yet another PT appointment. yes, that's right, i'm supposed to be more miserable for the next few days to weeks and then somewhere in there i'm supposed to get relief from these steroids. i thought i would be the last person in the world taking "steroids"... thank you so much, all of you. ( Read more... )

i'm still staying positive because i want to because i have to. i will undoubtedly be tired and anxious to type yet again tomorrow so the ESI description installment will come at some point ( Read more... )

Dear Santa ( Read more... )

saint and sailors; dashboard confessional ( Read more... )

in the never-ending saga of the peaks and valleys i've hit a high again. the low was probably last night some time when i realized i did, in fact, have to get up and take a third percocet of the day. that's not too bad considering it's down from 6. and that's the only drug i'm taking now. i thought i finished reading at 10. got a text message ( Read more... )

the subject heading of this entry says it all and then some, i hope. so if you want to know what feeling pregnant is actually, 100% truly right - this isn't the place to find it. if you want the closest thing humanly or otherwise possible to it, you've come to the right place. i am an emotional wreck. i eat like a wild beast, yes, more so than ( Read more... )

if ever i felt like an astronaut and a deep-sea diver at the same time it's now. complete and estatic euphoria to utter and abyssmal despair. i've done it all sometimes in a matter of 10 minutes in the last two weeks - give or take a bit. asking for help and encouragement has never been something i wanted to do, but it's past that point now. i'm ( Read more... )

i had another not so okay day. it was fine for the most part although i think it was the evening that kind of made it bad ( Read more... )

i love my medical anthropology class. L.O.V.E. i'm so glad i decided it was worth it today to get up in time to go to that 8.35 class notwithstanding the fact that i wasn't in bed until 3AM because of psych stats homework. note to self: going to stats class might actually be helpful. it also might cut down on the amount of time homework takes ( Read more... )