If it makes you feel any better, I've been on edge all week, myself. I really think its the lack of sleep we both are getting. I've been feeling the same way, as you can see from my lj post. Also, as you said, little things have been setting me off. If you find a solution, let me know, I could use it. :) I hope you have a good one.
I REALLY know how you feel. When I first started my job I was going through EXACTLY what you were...lack of eating, sleep, and replaying everything I did that day in my head. It is basically extreme anxiety. I strongly suggest you start meditating, realize that things that have happened you can't change...just because you fucked up doesn't mean you are a fuck up and things can be fix etc.. It's really difficult and my anxiety with work has gotten much better ever since I started to get more comfortable with the job itself and my confidence shows.
What's bothering you lately? Home issues? Work? Relationships? When you figure that issue out...that's why you should meditate to find out what the issue is...then address it, write it down on here or if you want it super private write it down in a journal and figure out a plan to either 1. Cope with the problem 2. Fix said problem 3. Or just let it go if it's out of your control.
It's not home or school or anything. It's just... a constant feeling that something is going to go wrong... or "what do people say about me when I walk away" or... "Did I lock my keys in the car?" when I'm fucking holding them. What time is it? I just checked the clock three minutes ago... so I can't be late for work yet, right?
I have to reassure myself every 10 minutes that nothing is wrong, that my friends aren't bitching about me, that I am in fact holding my keys, and therefore couldn't have left them in the car, or that in fact it's not three hours later than I think it is and I'm therefore late for work.
It's not one thing. It's EVERYTHING. I've done a LOT of thinking about it, and I've already determined that it's irrational paranoia.
And as far as meds go, I'm going to do my damndest to NOT have to take them. I don't like taking things that mess with my head that way.
I'm going to be making an appointment with someone soon I think... just so I can know exactly what's wrong with me. After that, I can try to fix it... sans
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I know I probably asked this already, but what are your hours on Saturday? If your free in the morning did you want to catch a movie or something?
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Also... that is an incredibly fitting avatar. I approve.
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What's bothering you lately? Home issues? Work? Relationships? When you figure that issue out...that's why you should meditate to find out what the issue is...then address it, write it down on here or if you want it super private write it down in a journal and figure out a plan to either 1. Cope with the problem 2. Fix said problem 3. Or just let it go if it's out of your control.
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Liz
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I have to reassure myself every 10 minutes that nothing is wrong, that my friends aren't bitching about me, that I am in fact holding my keys, and therefore couldn't have left them in the car, or that in fact it's not three hours later than I think it is and I'm therefore late for work.
It's not one thing. It's EVERYTHING. I've done a LOT of thinking about it, and I've already determined that it's irrational paranoia.
And as far as meds go, I'm going to do my damndest to NOT have to take them. I don't like taking things that mess with my head that way.
I'm going to be making an appointment with someone soon I think... just so I can know exactly what's wrong with me. After that, I can try to fix it... sans
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