(no subject)
The love has cracked
Like china glass
As you held it protectively
In the palm of your hand
You were so afraid to break it
For so long
Afraid to lose what you’d held so dear
You threatened to drop it for weeks
And when you finally did
I was devastated
To lose the love
That I thought you and I would always share
I tried to hold it
Cage it up like a beautiful dove
But you let it fly away
We couldn’t bring ourselves to say “Goodbye”
And it was so dragged out
I almost cried out
“Please stop this game.
It feels as though you’re driving circles around me
And my heart is tied
To your bumper.
I can’t handle
This painful game.
It’s over. You win. Let go.”
I lost by proving to you
The words you always said were true
Your eyes shot blue flames at me
Flames that were lit with hate
I knew in that moment
That I had not only lost
The painful game that we name “Love”
I had also lost you
There was an earthquake in my bones
And a flood caused by the damn behind my eyes breaking
I am a walking natural disaster
Bringing with me wherever I go
Pain and devastation
And always a casualty or two
I’ve cried a river
That now has come between us
And I know
I’ll never be worth
The agony of trying to get across.
You think of me now
As the dirt that you walk on
And I think of you
As the stars that light my night sky
Today...
I am thankful for the sun