Comments | ruins_we_hold: read it and weep.

ruins_we_hold

read it and weep.

Jan 09, 2005 13:49

I thought alot this morning at church. about alot of things. First thing. Over the last probably 4 monthes, ive pretty much lost my faith. Im not really sure why. Its wierd because it seems like the more involved i got in the church the less faith i had. I have either a really hard time trusting people, or i trust people easily. It depends. ( Read more... )

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hook..line.. and sinker 2badurenotoasty January 10 2005, 01:32:37 UTC

DAME kelli. that essay that your sister wrote was amazing. seriously just unbelievable. I couldnt even begin to think of what I wouldve written for something like that. tell her I think that was really just amazing and she is an awesome writer.
I know what you're saying about this whole faith thing. When i first started going to church I absolutely loved it. The worship inspired me and the lessons and lectures would help me to get through my days. But now I am finding that I zone in and out during the worship songs and the lessons when I try so hard to tell myself to pay attention.. and when i should be devoting my heart and time to god at church, other things are on my mind. It makes me feel like a bad christian (not BAD, but not a good example of one) really it does. I have no intentions of not attending church anymore.. but as far as your feelings go in that area. I totally understand what you're saying and how you feel.

Re: hook..line.. and sinker ruins_we_hold January 10 2005, 04:37:29 UTC

yeah she doesnt know i put it in here or i would. shhhh.

its ash anonymous January 10 2005, 03:43:21 UTC

wow. I'm really sorry about how you feel about your faith, and i hope that you dont leave the church because of what's all going on. Yeah, but i do understand how you feel about not really wanting to go cuz its not exciting anymore! I kinda feel that way too, but maybe you should recommit your life to god!.....maybe that would help! but you shouldnt use phil as your excuse, i think that is really wrong and it just makes the situation worse! but i hope that the way you feel doesnt last for long! and i hope that you dont leave the church either.

ash

Re: its ash ruins_we_hold January 10 2005, 04:37:00 UTC

ok ash. I know what your saying, but I have known about this a long time, thought about it alot, and i just got back from the meeting which they spent about 2 hours talking about it. I think i can make my desision maturely by now. I wouldnt recommit my life to God if i dont beleive it. Thanks though. im not trying to sound harsh, alots going through my mind

one word _sincerely__me January 10 2005, 04:41:10 UTC

amazing.

if you ever need someone to talk to. im here:).

Re: one word ruins_we_hold January 10 2005, 05:04:09 UTC

thanks :). i might take you up on that.

blinkboard182 January 10 2005, 04:44:48 UTC

im a jew....so im going to hell anyway :)

but in all honesty, i agree with you to a certain extent. i haven't given up so to speak on god....i just gave up on the fact that he created and does everything on his own...there is something else out there besides him. i just don't know what. don't believe.....just have a good idea.