thinkingg .. again. 2 weeks. i give it. you don't want what you can have you only want what you have to work for. i worked for it. i got it. now, what. i dont feel challenged. a relationship shouldn't be a challenge. things that come too easily and just go so good, that scares me and i do something to mess it up. i messed up. now, what. i am left ( Read more... )

I am so perfectly happy and content <3

i'm so impatient.
i'm on the phone.
tonight sucks.
fuck

i love how alyssa and me were african american all day, because i heard THAT WAS COOL .. right. I WANT TO BE YOU ?!?!!?!??!! yeah yeah.

i don't know why i'm awake at 852am on a sunday morning. i suffer from an extreme lack of sleep. i got maybe 3 hours of sleep last night. this weekend was awesome. friday i went to the mall with aly and kim than adam picked me up and i hung out with him and andrew. than saturday, adam picked up alyssa than andrew and we all hung out. for the past ( Read more... )

so high.

friday night.
mall. adam.
yeah, i love leftover crack.
my cat went to the vet for the first time today.
i was sad.
tomorrow is going to be awesome.
metro? alyssa =) <3
no more best friend, whatev.
26 minutes until i leave. cool.
i look like a 9 year old giiirl <3

fuuuccck going into school late.
fuuuucck friends.
fuuuucck how cool this weekend is going to be.
fuuuucck love.

dfsitlj4j44j!!! i'm hot <3

iloveloveloveloveyou!!

fuck friends. i love how they do the stupidest shit. lets talk about your 'best friend' and than to take the spot light off of you [for once, suprising because you always need to be the center of attention] and than blame me for stupid shit i didnt even say. but yeah, that's cool. if it was such a big deal 'the secret' .. why would you tell ( Read more... )

& the distance killed us.
regretting?
some.
mostly false assumptions on what could have been.
i think.
could the have worked?
could seeing eachother for 4 hours a week keep us together?
no.

... i'm not sad, i'm just hurt.
i'm angry that i hurt YOU <3