every night i dream i being happy and being with one that i love. and every night it is different, but they all end the same with me in his arms. i don't know what it will be like if it were to happen in the real world, but i know i will be a little nervous and when he is there looking down at me my fears will run away and ill feel like nothing can ( Read more... )

when i was younger i wanted kids, as i got older i hated the idea of having kids it was just resonantly that i wanted kids i had this dream of two young kids that called me Mom and when i looked at them i could c a little bit of me in them. at that moment i wanted them to be real... i wanted the whole dream to be real. every thing i wanted was in ( Read more... )

If I would get something for Xmiss what would I get ( Read more... )

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Holidays i hate them. for me holidays where hell growing up. everyone hated me so i would always try to find away not to go. but this year i don't think i could escape, and that sucks. in my family we r not all that happy with each other it's like a small war with in the family. and it's creepy as hell. no one smiles and says nice things to one ( Read more... )

I hate fucking men that think that they could do anything they want to any one that cant protect them self. The one thing I hate more then anything is a sic fucking horny man that thinks rap is OK. it's not, and never will be. If I had my way I would love to kick every mans ass that thinks rap is OK's ass. and let them c how fucking helpless we ( Read more... )

for the last few days I've been upset and sad ... well it's really been almost a week now. i just don't know what to do anymore with a lot of things. i know that if my mood does not change and change soon ill get in to a fight. ten to one it will be with some one that i care for and I'm a scared that i might do some thing stupid, and regreat what I ( Read more... )

right now I'm a 19 year old college girl who is madly in love with a with a soon to be 20 year old college boy. we love each other so much. we have so many thing's in common it's endless. we love music and have a thing for games. we can sit there and watch each other sleep and not really care. the things that can be. to me i don't care what happens ( Read more... )

i don't know why but as my bf spook to me this morn of thoughts of our time we would spend together, it made me cry. just the thought of him holding me and stuff like that hurt me. but i loved it. the thought of his arms warping around me and holding me close to him felt right like it should and that that was where i was meant to be. like that was ( Read more... )