Alone, hurt and neglected I sit at the computer staring at the screen. Nothing to do. Nothing to say. I glance at the pills beside me thinking of thier uses. I dismiss them quickly. On the desk I catch a glimpse of metal. I see the handle with the blade placed ever so discreetly into its sheath. I reach for it, but hesitate. I look down the hallway ( Read more... )

my apologies. i am signing back on. probably because i have nothing better to do because im consistantly bored out of my mind. i've got an interview today... w00h00.... then im going to go to work then im going to pass the fuck out... i hate doing my everyday routine. it gets boring. especially when BP depression hits.

Zack and I are no longer... which probably means i will never see most of you again.... which also means i probably wont sign on to this ever again... sorry guys.

I'm so freakin' busy... I have 25 interviews to do in less than 2 weeks, I need to get 16 hours of community service, I have to make up 5 weeks worth of assignments for WOST, a final paper for WOST as well, a lesson plan for a semester long high school swimming class, classes, pledge meetings, fund raisers, community service stuff, and of course ( Read more... )

 So.... I'm bored out of my mind and pissed off that i cant sign up for classes and annoyed that i can't stop doing stuff long enough to sleep... BUT life is amazing. idk. i don't make sense... lol

I'm a Soul, and my Bigs are Janie and Kelly. w00t! that is all.

 So, I got chosen to begin field experience in PE teaching!!!! I'm not even considered a junior yet but I'm "taking a class" that seniors usually take.  Here's the deal: I teach Beginning Swimming at CSUEB on Mon and Wed mornings (which is basically my job at Silliman anyways) and at the end of the quarter I get units for it! awesome... and I'm ( Read more... )

So, I'm still doing report cards and lesson plans for next week's swim lessons... It seems like my work is never done! I had to work at 8:45AM today and was totally exhausted by the end of the shift, but I have to come home and DO MORE WORK!!! gir... I wish I could just go to work next week so I didn't have to write all this crap down for my ( Read more... )

Ok, so this is my first live journal experience! OMG is this site hard to navigate... anyways, let me say a little about my current status in life.  I am dating zack, a wonderful, intelligent, talented, compassionate, and a-little-bit-crazy (but in the best way possible!) man. I would tag him in here but i don't know how yet. lol. I am a new fur. ( Read more... )