I'd like to give big thank you to those of you who constantly keep me laughing. You know who you are! You make life so much more fun!

I've just finished reading the "drama" that is LiveJournal. And I have to say that whether it makes me immature or whatnot, it cracks me up to read. lol Somethings will never change. But anyways, I haven't posted in quite sometime, so I guess I'm due ( Read more... )

I'm so...mad. I don't know what to do. I mostly just feel pretty stupid for everything. But I'd rather be feeling stupid now, and maybe forever, then feeling like I know I'd feel otherwise. If that makes sense. I feel angry, frustrated, jealous, pissed off, and....sad. It's been a long day. Yesterday was a long day. Time is dragging, it seems ( Read more... )

Well, I could post a big long account of my last week, but most of it has been posted on other LiveJournals. On Wenesday Sam and I went to Fairview Heights and it was a great time. It was my first time driving there though. I know...I know...lol I'm 18 and it was my first time, but oh well. It was a great time. We ate at Olga's and that was the ( Read more... )

I've never met anyone who sucks at life as much as I do.

I'm deleting this stupid thing.

I'm sad. Even when I'm a feeling pretty good for awhile...on the inside..way down...the empty feeling always right there waiting for me. And it always shows it's face after awhile. And once again I feel empty.

Right now is one of those times.

I hit the update button everyday. But I always just end up closing out the box. I have stuff I need to stay, but not the LJ world. I....I honest to God just don't know anymore. Don't know what to say, what to think, what to feel...how to act like I feel. I went to the track today, thinking it would help. It kind of used to. I didn't today ( Read more... )

Maybe I'm bipolar. Isn't that what it is with the really high highs and the really low lows. I can be on top of the world, and have been for a little while. And this morning, well, afternoon I guess, I just feel like hell ( Read more... )

Tonight....
..was totally and completely awesome. I had a blast. I want to talk to Sammy really bad though. Luckily I work with her tomorrow. Because I want to know what's up with her, and I want to tell her whats up with me ( Read more... )