That's just it; I keep wondering if they're even still in my heart. I know that so much of who I am came from them, and yet I can't see to remember which parts they are or who they came from.
It makes me sad that something that mattered so much to me is lost now. I want it back so badly, and I do anything to get it. But it seems to me that its beyond my reach now and nothing I do will change it.
I'm starting to wonder if I ever knew who I was...
Life is a constant journey of discovery - not only external, but internal as well. I believe that you DO know who you are; in your heart and deep within your soul. Perhaps your eyes and mind are blinded by the other things that are going on in your life at this time? It's a possiblity.
Losing things that are dear to us is always hard, yes - but it can also be an oppourtunity to forge new bonds, and create new deep and underlying friendships.
Who truly does know who they are? Even trying to find out requires changing the thing you seek to discover. I'm sorry. I don't have too much to say, only that I understand. I, also, am one who forges strong, sometimes apparently arbitrary emotional ties... to things, places, people, anything. Then suffer when time comes to sever them, only to do it all over again. I can only speak for myself, I guess, and hope that something useful can be found within it... but that pain is part of who I am, the price of being me. I've felt it before, I feel it now, and I will feel it again many times, but I gladly pay the price to be myself, and I will keep loving and losing and hoping that one day I'll find something that won't be lost.
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Memories may fade, but as long as you hold someone close to your heart - they will never be truly gone.
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It makes me sad that something that mattered so much to me is lost now. I want it back so badly, and I do anything to get it. But it seems to me that its beyond my reach now and nothing I do will change it.
I'm starting to wonder if I ever knew who I was...
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Losing things that are dear to us is always hard, yes - but it can also be an oppourtunity to forge new bonds, and create new deep and underlying friendships.
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I'm sorry. I don't have too much to say, only that I understand. I, also, am one who forges strong, sometimes apparently arbitrary emotional ties... to things, places, people, anything. Then suffer when time comes to sever them, only to do it all over again. I can only speak for myself, I guess, and hope that something useful can be found within it... but that pain is part of who I am, the price of being me. I've felt it before, I feel it now, and I will feel it again many times, but I gladly pay the price to be myself, and I will keep loving and losing and hoping that one day I'll find something that won't be lost.
Take care, friend.
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