woke up and gave a card to my mom...made her happy. She seemed less bothered by the fact the my sister didnt call or stop by than she usualy does. She only talked about it once today put me at ease a litle. She's leaving for italy tomorow so itll be just me and my dad.: ) i havent done a damn thing today. I feel useless. yesterday i had big 4. it ( Read more... )

Today is cinco de mayo...means nothing to the mexicans but to us americans yet another reason to drink... But im sitting at home. Went to the doctor today he was trying to get me outa there as quickly as he could..i dont think ill ever be well think i have an ulcer...bad habits.. still sick but its not bothering me so much ne more almost used to ( Read more... )

Weeks been pretty crappy. Feel sick all the time dont know what it is i have no energy and am sick to my stomach. I think people are mad at me. bothers me some but i dont let on that it does. came home after leaving practice early ,just wanting to crawl into a whole and die, my mom was crying ...comforting her leaves an emptiness inside me its ( Read more... )

Getting to talk to Hayley more is setlign my thoughts lulls me into a calmer state. been out walkin though the dark woods looking for my dog who my mom said ran away but he hadnt.. was a nice walk though. peaceful. started listening to country music again for once it didnt make me sad. at its best it made me smile time to time. my pst has siesed to ( Read more... )

Woke up to eat w/ my parents. got to listen to them talk about my sister again..i thought id eventually b free of that bitch i mean she moved out 3 years ago. my moms all distraught and her anger is concentrated here. i dont think i can take the weekends. always the same shit. Last night was decent got to see my g/f and hung out w/ a 2 friends just ( Read more... )

I had an account some time ago but felt that people were learning more about me than needed. this week flew by it sucks so damn bad. the weekend are lonely and w/o being able to talk to those u care about its just not a good time. ill try and keep busy but it never works out. Get to c my g/f for a little while tonight despite the fact that her mom ( Read more... )