Dizzy
did i just experimented on myself or i have a mentally disorder...
i start getting dizzy by this night i wrote this note
for this few days...i dunno but i don't really take any breakfast at all
i started my breakfast at 12 or late noon
what i know is i got this fucking stress...fucking in my head
tapi ya biasanya kalo udah siang gitu makan nasi..
but not today because we're running out of rice.
i thought that there will be some rice late dinner
but i was wrong
there's nothing here
when i get asked to buy some friedrice or something that i could eat
i couldn't buy them because i already tired..so much
and my knee keep shaking just like don't wanna stop
kinda need to move instead of keeping it still
i really stressed right now
and i feel it's on my brain..
i keep thinking the person...
i need to stand still
i need to be patient..
i need to...
i should've focus right now...
gotta more focus
and now i hate it because i'm not in work or anything that keep my head thinking more to the work thing instead of this cry-like a baby-thing
GOD my head hurt so much
and the pain in my heart is coming again...
i don't want to check up again..
all i need is that calm down sensation
it's just like a drug for me
damn
when i'll grown up little bit?
aaarrrrrrggghhhhh
where is the hell my own year ago
i'm not like this before
i don't know if it's true or false
but every story i get
the woman is always hold this man's destiny
when something's happened to their beloved lady
they're goin' nuts and unbelievable
why so bothering me?
is it because i love her a lot?
and thing's change my friend's mind after he got new girl..
that's not what i have a problem with my friend here
but it's just he kind of doing some little stupid things that we all don't know how it ends
when i'm falling in love i'd do some stupid things but not that stupid..
i do think twice or more before doing that
things' are will be different if you are nearly to marry your girlfriend though
but the road's is a long road
i don't want to talk straight to him because he won't listening to me either
let the time proves me wrong
and somehow i got some trouble in myself
i kind of losing again
i feel like a crying baby need a hug from his mother instead of getting change the pampers
mungkin karena faktor the only child of my parent that is still not legally married yet
lalu terpikirkan juga semua biaya..dan semua kembali lagi kepada uang...
damn i hate money so much
or maybe because i feel so lonely without her
i need her hug
i need her kiss
damn i'm becoming more hate if love come to this stage
some people said that if you have the money
you get the girl...every girl you want
will come to you
yea it's true i gotta say but it's not completely true either
some thing's are not always come out with money
but the money is for the completion for becoming a great man
right?
it's on my mind..the disease
i need her
or i need a bitch
FUCK ME
i get my head so wrong
i start getting dizzy by this night i wrote this note
for this few days...i dunno but i don't really take any breakfast at all
i started my breakfast at 12 or late noon
what i know is i got this fucking stress...fucking in my head
tapi ya biasanya kalo udah siang gitu makan nasi..
but not today because we're running out of rice.
i thought that there will be some rice late dinner
but i was wrong
there's nothing here
when i get asked to buy some friedrice or something that i could eat
i couldn't buy them because i already tired..so much
and my knee keep shaking just like don't wanna stop
kinda need to move instead of keeping it still
i really stressed right now
and i feel it's on my brain..
i keep thinking the person...
i need to stand still
i need to be patient..
i need to...
i should've focus right now...
gotta more focus
and now i hate it because i'm not in work or anything that keep my head thinking more to the work thing instead of this cry-like a baby-thing
GOD my head hurt so much
and the pain in my heart is coming again...
i don't want to check up again..
all i need is that calm down sensation
it's just like a drug for me
damn
when i'll grown up little bit?
aaarrrrrrggghhhhh
where is the hell my own year ago
i'm not like this before
i don't know if it's true or false
but every story i get
the woman is always hold this man's destiny
when something's happened to their beloved lady
they're goin' nuts and unbelievable
why so bothering me?
is it because i love her a lot?
and thing's change my friend's mind after he got new girl..
that's not what i have a problem with my friend here
but it's just he kind of doing some little stupid things that we all don't know how it ends
when i'm falling in love i'd do some stupid things but not that stupid..
i do think twice or more before doing that
things' are will be different if you are nearly to marry your girlfriend though
but the road's is a long road
i don't want to talk straight to him because he won't listening to me either
let the time proves me wrong
and somehow i got some trouble in myself
i kind of losing again
i feel like a crying baby need a hug from his mother instead of getting change the pampers
mungkin karena faktor the only child of my parent that is still not legally married yet
lalu terpikirkan juga semua biaya..dan semua kembali lagi kepada uang...
damn i hate money so much
or maybe because i feel so lonely without her
i need her hug
i need her kiss
damn i'm becoming more hate if love come to this stage
some people said that if you have the money
you get the girl...every girl you want
will come to you
yea it's true i gotta say but it's not completely true either
some thing's are not always come out with money
but the money is for the completion for becoming a great man
right?
it's on my mind..the disease
i need her
or i need a bitch
FUCK ME
i get my head so wrong