ugh i think too much.
where to start.
Well i guess i should start by saying this is a vent post and you really dont need to read it.
okay so yesterday i changed my faccebook profile pic to a cute one of kurt and Finn from glee hugging/cuddling. its a fucking adorable picture, of course my dad sees it and freaks -.- hes so homophobic its not funny. if i watched the glee episode "theatricaly" with him in the room no doubt hed start bashing Kurt. it makes me sad.and he kept nagging at me to change it....so i did...to japan in a maid dress. i doubt he'll ever figure ut its a guy XD. gotta love traps!~
he told me not to post anything questionable since i have reletive on there too but i really dont think its questionable.
^ the pic
i'm thinking of just making a new fb account and re adding everyone except the family. of course my name will hcange for that...agian. should i do it? it would give me more freedom.
next topic.
last week i was listening to i dont ned a man by the pussycat dolls on my mp3 and realised how that really didnt apply to me. i need a man. i hate being alone and its killing me on the inside. but when ever i fall in love hes either gay or married T.T do i have bad taste or somthing? i'm only 16 but i've never had a boyfriend and the only thing i want out of life is love. i dont care about anything else. but i cant seem to find love and if i cant find it whats the point of living? its pathetic just how depressed this song and thinking about it has made me.oh and if you think imma kill my self over this chill. i dont want to die a virgin so...yeah.
somthing brighter!~
last friday i went on a feild trip to furgus (its near toronto) to be a member of the ontario rainbow youth coliltion. which is basicly a huge gay streight allience between a bunch of ontario shcools. it was so much fun there!~ we all had to do three workshops and the first one i went to was also my fave. you wrote your name on a piece of apaper and passed it around the circle and people would complement you. ....that paper is now stick tacked to my door xD. so if i ever have a bad day i can look at it and read all the comments to brighten me up.
the atmosphere there was just amazing! it was so positive and happy!~ just a feeling of acceptance. becuase even though not everyone there was gay or les the strieght ones where there for support too.
there was a comedian there vong sundara you should lookj him up hes funny. the bus rides where really long though. 4 hours each way. but on the way back we played truth or dare. now i should let you know i reallllly suck at truth or dare i can never think of dares. so when its my turn we have to resort to a group brainstorming session. anyway it was fun. i had to bite someone, then had to suck on my finger. we got two guys to kiss a couple times.they make a cute couple btw. i made someone lick the floor of the bus too.
OMG the one time i choose truth i find my self regretting it. they asked when was the last time i masturbated....well i answered right away anyway xD. the last dare nataile had to kiss me. neither one of us really cared so we just did it.
it was such a fun day
now for some other junk
two years after i bought FMA(anime) volume 5 i finally bought another one volume 4. and the booklet that came with it is so much thicker than the other one i have. probably beacuse volume 5 keeps going on the same things that happening in 4. the plot moved so slowly in the original. but in brotherhood they seem to be rushing through it.
on the topic of FMA i'm writting a MilesXKimblee fanfic. HATESEX!! they hate each other and i know it but the only other person i can see miles paired with is olivier adn well i just dont like her. i'm falling for kimblee and i hate my self for it but damn so many things about him i like. hes sadistic, he wears a suit,long hair,black hair, GORGEOUS BLUE EYES! btw sadism is a major turn on for me so.....i should stop talking.
lastly i started watching glee and i can blame my lovely english teacher for that because the day after the power of madonna epsiode aired we watched it in her class. she loves madonna and the epsiode was all about challenging gender roles as well. she was the one who organized the trip to furgus...just to let you know. ANYWAY..GAGA EPISODE!!! i loved it soo much. kurt looked fabuluos as usual and they're rendition of bad romance was amazing. Finn needs to chill. just cuz Kurt likes you and you're now sharing a room dosnt mean hes going to reap you in your sleep! ugh he really deserved that lecture from kurts dad.