I find myself looking forward to this semester.  Not in a "God, this is going to be fun" but in a "I am either going to succeed or fall flat on my ass."  I'll come out of this stronger, I think ( Read more... )

Life is all one big bargain.  I'm having a hard time making a commitment to what I want, which is sort of an answer in and of itself.  I mean, seriously.  I'm choosing to give up having purpose so that I don't make the wrong choice.  Security over greatness.  It worries me.  I want a full, rich life, and I feel like I'm copping out.  I finally ( Read more... )

It's been a really sucky break thus far.  Drama with Luke.  My dad being in the hospital.  But wait; it gets better.  For Christmas?  I got a swollen lip, lost glasses, and what I think may be a broken nose.   And I now have the herpes in the form of a cold sore under my lip.  And I had to watch my dad try to scam the hospital for more methodone to ( Read more... )

So, for whatever reason, my entire computer is crapping out on me.  My "D" key is sticking like crazy, my battery is "irreparably damaged," and so on and so forth.

I'm feeling better today.  After allowing myself to wallow in my misery for a couple of days, I'm starting to feel all right.  I can even listen to Blue October without crying.  Woot.  ( Read more... )

I have been at Luke's for a week, and yesterday shit hit the ceiling fan.  Both of us being passionate peple, we bickered.  Not terribly unexpected.  Yesterday started off really well.  We woke up with no alarm, which was amazing.  Then I got Starbucks...  (I still need to pay him back for that.)  I became super excited-happy-freakoutish.  Nothing ( Read more... )

I am so blessed ( Read more... )

Friday night was fun.  I was loud and annoying and generally good company.  The only thing that wasn't so enjoyable was the vomiting.  But I can ignore that...  I'm not sure that it was drunk-sick anyways.  Because my tummy still hurts, and it did prior to drinking as well.  So I'm assuming it was a touch of the flu plus drinking.  Good times.  And ( Read more... )

So, today was all right.  One of the girls in group pissed several of the other girls off, myself included.  I've had a rough couple of days.  I feel so tired and worn down and... just yeah.  So tonight I am going to say "fuck responsibility" and indulge in cheap beverages of the unsavory variety, along with some girl talk.  Should be fun.

I'm ( Read more... )

I did Lake Superior again last night.  The water where the lake meets the beach was slush.  It was incredibly cold; just from having my legs in it I felt like I couldn't breathe.  So I lay flat and stumbled out.  There's no graceful walking when you can't feel your body.  Heh.  Also, I had an audience.  Awkward.  lol  Amber's headlights were ( Read more... )

I am a glutton for punishment.  I'm signed up for eighteen credit hours next semester.  Why, oh why, am I doing that to myself?

I have a lot of contradictory thoughts regarding men, and whether I even need them in my life.  I mean, a boyfriend would be nice, but I don't need one.  Do I?  Honestly, I feel really satisfied with my situation with ( Read more... )