It's really cold outside.  However, it's also really pretty.  The skies are full of fluffy white clouds, set against a deep blue backdrop.  It makes me glad I'm alive ( Read more... )

So, I took a test that I didn't really study for tonight.  I didn't even get through all the chapters, ha ha.  Aside from that, I feel fairly confident I did well.  So, I'm pretty sure I'm going to start making school a priority, since I haven't been lately.  Additionally, class scheduling for the next semester starts soon.  I'm sort of nervous, ( Read more... )

Did you think I was joking when I said I'd find a way to fuck it up?  If I wanted to slam the brakes on, I sure as hell did it ( Read more... )

      I'm starting to feel like Luke and I hurtling at this way too fast.  So, we need to back up and back off.  Not saying I'm interested in other people, or that I don't like him.  I'm just realizing how quickly we are moving, and it's a little bit scary.  I don't know how to slow it down.  I feel a bit like I'm on a train, and we are going down ( Read more... )

I am so tired.  Aren't I always? Argh.  Oh well.  I'm babysitting right now.  Sammy didn't even cry when I put him to bed tonight.  Which was shocking, since he cried about everything else.  He didn't want to take a bath, he didn't want to brush his teeth, he didn't want to pee...  Yeesh.  He didn't want to go outside, etc.  Every little freakin' ( Read more... )

I'm smiling.  All is well again.  :)

If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me? 

I'm not very happy right now.  My whole attitude is wavering between despair and apathy.  One minute I don't care...  And the next, I'm crying.  It's just not fair.  And I do it to myself.  I try and try and try and then I fail and it kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiills me.  Because, very obviously, this means I'm a failure.  I can't eat right, I can't ( Read more... )

Luke and I are together.  It's "official".  Or something.  I was supposed to call him last night, and I fell asleep holding the phone.  He posted about it, but then...  Someone commented on his post.

"It's too bad that your opinion of yourself is still based on the approval of a woman. Didn't we adress this like three years ago when you and I first ( Read more... )

I met Luke on Saturday.  Filled with shame, drenched with sweat, I met with him.  It was the best nine hours I can remember having in a very long time.  I was braless, my pants kept falling down to display the least attractive panties in all of existence, and I felt incredibly comfortable with him.
The connection I had with him was absolutely ( Read more... )

So, the bonfire on Saturday was excellent.  There was much alcohol and socializing.  I really enjoyed myself.  I got in around 6 a.m. and went to harass Joe.  After much talking, it was decided that no matter how much I begged, he would not enjoy the drunk sex with me.  However, he proved himself to be a nice guy by pouring water down my throat and ( Read more... )