that's it... i've had it...

[rvlutionfreedom]

i'm writing... i'm writing to you, who ever you are...

i haven't done this in a long time... i've hated my life for a long time...

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[rvlutionfreedom]

aw, thank you... it's funny, but any time i get art mail, i feel so different from what i typed here last night... it's always such a wonderful thing and the feeling lasts for a long time... you all truly are the closest thing i have to friends anymore... everyone i knew in new york - EVERYONE has forgotten... i never ever get emails or messages... i send little notes now and then - "hi how are you"... nothing... with you all i feel like it could last forever... and the beautiful pieces i've received... forever... thank you for your art and friendship...

[machinarex]

well, there's always an aspect of "the greener grass" in relationships (be they w/people/places/whatever)...you also have to decide what degree is just that, and what degree is real unhappiness.

i'm not going to be around a whole lot this weekend (Junebug is in town) but i'll try and catch up with you and we can chat. now i wish i hadn't lost my phone!

[rvlutionfreedom]

one day soon we'll sit and talk... not on the phone... face to face... i miss you so much...

you yourself know what i've been dealing with lately... shit like that makes you start to question everything that you think you know...

unhappiness for me = alone and crying... right now, quite often...

kisslovedan'l

p.s. - HI JUNEBUG!!!

[machinarex]

yup, i know what you're talking about...been there! i wish i was there to offer a shoulder for ya.

maybe you should just take a little time off, a mini-vacation or something. oftentimes a small break can do wonders, ya know? go and see your family, come and visit us, go somewhere where ya don't know anyone...whatever!

we love ya and miss you, too!

[rvlutionfreedom]

i think it's just human, that's all... and i'm not gonna give into it anymore... i'm gonna use my LJ to bring everyone else down... (kidding)

i know how therapeutic it is to write - and it seems so much more therapeutic when you know that others will see it... i'm happy that you're here, reading...

[rosegogh]

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You're a very nice young man.

What do you want ?

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[rvlutionfreedom]

well, first of all i want that doll in your user pic (hehehe) but really, i just want to not be bored anymore...

kisslovedan'l

[feychilde]

((hugs))
This last week has been the same for me as far as just feeling weird and feeling as if there is no one to talk to and that there are no friends...
It seems quite a few people are going through this lately!
I don't have much to say...but I've got ears to hear and if you need it a shoulder to cry on! I've been working on your D&Q...your going to Love it! It's my favorite so far!
Love ya!!!!

[rvlutionfreedom]

thanks! and i'm so excited to see the D&Q... to tell the truth, i'd almost completely forgotten about it... my life is so centered around this show and the school lately that my mind doesn't have much more room to think about other things... yay! i can't wait!!!