Isnt life so fucking grand???
Well, I just got back from birmingham... Had to go up there to see my orthopedist. I was really nervous cause i wasnt sure what he would say about my leg. Well i got there and, long story short, he game me a massive steriod shot that hurt like hell and is going to try physical therapy... I dont know why, because aparently (which i just found out) when they did the MRI of my leg and ankle... my ligament is missing, which means it is severed and has recessed so far up my leg that it isnt showing up. So, honestly, now im not a doctor or anything but i dont think moving my foot around and going through more pain and wearing this stupid boot for at least another month is going to find my ligament and somehow reattach it. THEN, if PT doesnt work he is going to cast it to wear i cant take it off for a month... and THEN he is going to do surgery if it still isnt better... I am just pissed that it will be at least 2 more months untill i find out what is really gonna fix my foot... maybe more... i dont know.
Part of me understands why he is waiting on the surgery... I finally got told what all would be involved in it... Aparently they will have to harvest ligament from somewhere else, go in, thread it through the bone and pin it into place with god knows how many pins, just depends on how far my ligament recessed.
Other than that... I need to find a job... cause aparently my transmission is about to go out and it will cost more than my car is worth to put a new transmission in. so i need to find a job and start looking for a cheap and in working condition car...
School is really demanding and is taking up a lot of time for me to stay up with all of my work for each class so i just am going to have to find time to work somewhere in between. Which just means i may have to leave the raptor center for a while... oh well... i cant go too long in life without havent to make sacrifices...
I guess im just a little down cause i cant do anything i want to anymore like ride my bike, work out like i used to, kayak, hike, and soon the raptor center. and all of those things will be outta my life for a long time now. If i end up having the surgery, it will be probably not till may till i have the surgery then ill be incapacitated for a while afterwards, then PT... and school will prolly start soon after that. I am not sure if i am more depressed or angry (at who or what i dont know). I am just trying to keep an optomistic outlook on things...
I am just a little stressed:(
Maybe ill have more happy news later....