i can go nowhere
like the light was all i had,
i struck the book with my last match
the candle burned so soft and slow
i felt the warmth and felt its glow
salt tasting tears they roll off of my lips
one for each day i'm inside this house
it's a trap, one i can't quite escape
so pretend it's the place that i love
won't let it pass me by again
i have this little place that i go when i'm frustrated or tense or just bored. it's upstairs and away from the world. it's the only room i'll ever burn candles in because it doesn't have any windows. it's filled with junk but i just lay on the floor with the candles surrounding me, listening to music. the lighting is perfect. everything just glows but it's not overpowering. it's just right. so i listen to music up there and write sometimes. i finally bought this little notebook that i carry around everywhere with me, so if i get a random idea, i'll write it down. i use it for everything, listing stuff i need from the grocery store, remembering dates, homework, plans for the weekend, venting. i date it and everything. i can't wait until i finish it off. anyway, i pretty much just sing up there. and i'm not that good at singing, jsyk. =] i made a playlist. i dunno how to organize songs, it's just what i've been listening to lately or stuff that puts me to sleep. one or the other.
1. That's Okay - the Hush Sound
2. Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin
3. Do You Know What I'm Seeing (Alternate Version) - Panic At the Disco
4. Down and Out - the Academy Is...
5. Everything's Magic - Angels and Airwaves
6. Darkness - Third Eye Blind
7. Northern Downpour - Panic At The Disco
8. Echo - the Hush Sound
9. Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
10. Hurricane - the Hush Sound
11. Behind the Sea (Alternate Version) - Panic At The Disco
12. You Are the Moon - the Hush Sound
13. A Dead Person Breathed on Me! - Forgive Durden
14. 40 Steps - the Academy Is...
15. Lullabies - All Time Low
16. The Conversation - Motion City Soundtrack
listen if you like =]
eta: 17. I've Got A Witch Mad At Me and You Might Get Into Trouble - Forgive Durden
18. Jasey Rae (Acoustic) - All Time Low
i know i need to get to sleep either, but the night has just been calling my name lately, so quietly that i keep listening for it. it intrigues me. it's my own wonderland. it really does drive me to a certain point of insanity. i can't stay awake at low points during the day. i get glossy, glazed eyes and just start falling forward into my dreams. and at the same time i've never been more in check with reality. when things get hectic, i'm right there. i don't think about anything else. that's why i haven't made the time to be here except when i keep my ears open after the sun goes down. it's the only time i really feel like nothing's going wrong. i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be.
here's what i've been waiting to get off my chest: when i see some of this stuff that i know i probably shouldn't be seeing (but if i'm able to, why shouldn't i?) i feel my heartbeat pulsing through my body and i just want to shout "SHE'S MINE!" so the whole hemisphere can hear me. even though you've never been mine, and you probably never will be. you're right in thinking this is about you and she's right and worthy to hold your attention, put her arms around you, and putting that smile on your face over and over and over until the day that you die. we both know i'm too selfish to fill those shoes. i can't keep my composure long enough to get two words out of you. when she's got you she's got the world. i don't think i can live alone but i'll do it anyway. it's the only thing i don't have to fight for (when the score's already set before it would even begin.)
i was hoping you would be waiting there for me lately
but you're not the kind of girl who would be waiting
not for anybody, not even me
i struck the book with my last match
the candle burned so soft and slow
i felt the warmth and felt its glow
salt tasting tears they roll off of my lips
one for each day i'm inside this house
it's a trap, one i can't quite escape
so pretend it's the place that i love
won't let it pass me by again
i have this little place that i go when i'm frustrated or tense or just bored. it's upstairs and away from the world. it's the only room i'll ever burn candles in because it doesn't have any windows. it's filled with junk but i just lay on the floor with the candles surrounding me, listening to music. the lighting is perfect. everything just glows but it's not overpowering. it's just right. so i listen to music up there and write sometimes. i finally bought this little notebook that i carry around everywhere with me, so if i get a random idea, i'll write it down. i use it for everything, listing stuff i need from the grocery store, remembering dates, homework, plans for the weekend, venting. i date it and everything. i can't wait until i finish it off. anyway, i pretty much just sing up there. and i'm not that good at singing, jsyk. =] i made a playlist. i dunno how to organize songs, it's just what i've been listening to lately or stuff that puts me to sleep. one or the other.
1. That's Okay - the Hush Sound
2. Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin
3. Do You Know What I'm Seeing (Alternate Version) - Panic At the Disco
4. Down and Out - the Academy Is...
5. Everything's Magic - Angels and Airwaves
6. Darkness - Third Eye Blind
7. Northern Downpour - Panic At The Disco
8. Echo - the Hush Sound
9. Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
10. Hurricane - the Hush Sound
11. Behind the Sea (Alternate Version) - Panic At The Disco
12. You Are the Moon - the Hush Sound
13. A Dead Person Breathed on Me! - Forgive Durden
14. 40 Steps - the Academy Is...
15. Lullabies - All Time Low
16. The Conversation - Motion City Soundtrack
listen if you like =]
eta: 17. I've Got A Witch Mad At Me and You Might Get Into Trouble - Forgive Durden
18. Jasey Rae (Acoustic) - All Time Low
i know i need to get to sleep either, but the night has just been calling my name lately, so quietly that i keep listening for it. it intrigues me. it's my own wonderland. it really does drive me to a certain point of insanity. i can't stay awake at low points during the day. i get glossy, glazed eyes and just start falling forward into my dreams. and at the same time i've never been more in check with reality. when things get hectic, i'm right there. i don't think about anything else. that's why i haven't made the time to be here except when i keep my ears open after the sun goes down. it's the only time i really feel like nothing's going wrong. i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be.
here's what i've been waiting to get off my chest: when i see some of this stuff that i know i probably shouldn't be seeing (but if i'm able to, why shouldn't i?) i feel my heartbeat pulsing through my body and i just want to shout "SHE'S MINE!" so the whole hemisphere can hear me. even though you've never been mine, and you probably never will be. you're right in thinking this is about you and she's right and worthy to hold your attention, put her arms around you, and putting that smile on your face over and over and over until the day that you die. we both know i'm too selfish to fill those shoes. i can't keep my composure long enough to get two words out of you. when she's got you she's got the world. i don't think i can live alone but i'll do it anyway. it's the only thing i don't have to fight for (when the score's already set before it would even begin.)
i was hoping you would be waiting there for me lately
but you're not the kind of girl who would be waiting
not for anybody, not even me