Depression hit me hard today.  But I'm gonna get over it.  I really want to talk to my dad.  Even though he's crazy.  Have to be at work at 6.  I hope I wake up in time.  I'm going to set my alarm clocks after I finish this.  I ran tonight.  I'm tired.  I should be in bed.  Shower before or after?  My eyes are dry.  One of my lenses popped out of ( Read more... )

Dear Mr. Self-control,

Next time I'm around chinese food, pizza, fried chicken, etc. please step in and let them know that even though I would love to eat them, I've noticed the tire around my waist grow, and I am no longer interested.  I would do it myself, but you know how I hate to hurt feelings.  Mr. Self-esteem has been leaving me nasty ( Read more... )

after two nights of my office being off and being enormously stressed through both of my shifts, i've been reminded that i'm not perfect.  i think i'm going to tell myself that i no longer want to help mold the office staff that i have built.  i think i want to just not worry about work at all.  i think i shall tell my coworkers (since that is what ( Read more... )

"Wind it up" played while I was jogging last night.  I felt this uncontrollable urge to sprint as soon as it came on.  After a good half a minute of sprinting, I felt like my lungs were gonna collapse and I was going to throw up.  Wondddeeerrrfffuuullll ( Read more... )

i ran tonight ( Read more... )

I woke up at 11 a.m. today.  Took maybe a 15 minute nap or two.  And at 5:17 in the morning, I am sitting here.  Awake.

I should lay down.  I'm sweating.  The house gets hot at night.  Maybe that's more reason to move out.  I don't know.

I'm on the edge.

(And all I've been craving lately is a good smoke.)

Make goals.

Another summer has come and passed.

Next summer will be different.  I told myself if something happened, I'd move out.

It happened.

Although it doesn't seem like it, I write entries quite often.  As soon as I'm done, I delete it.  No one needs to read what I've typed, but maybe I should post them anyway ( Read more... )

Finished Harry Potter earlier today.  I did nothing but read, and sleep for maybe three hours.  I've never been more determined about finishing a book in my entire life.  When I first finished it, I was not too happy about how the book had gone.  But now, reflecting upon the book, I'm quite sure I did like the book...  I'm still trying to find out ( Read more... )