I used to be artistic ( Read more... )

PS, I was thinking this the other night trying to go to bed.

I'm really sad if how I am now is going to be how I am for the rest of my life. I don't want to feel dead inside all the time. Only feel a select few emotions. I just don't feel it anymore.

Wow, wierd, today was a good day. I was tired, though, so that kinda sucks.

I do feel pretty good after getting my free credit report! Only one negative thing (but its big).

And I've gotten 2 things I've wanted for a while....and thats it.

Ok, so last weekend was an ok weekend. Marcus ended up not coming down again, but at least he tried. So I spent another weekend up there. Which is still, always, fun ( Read more... )

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I had a Mario Kart moment driving on 465. I was eating a banana, and the thought of tossing it out my window came into my head. And the truck behind me spun out in circles. Of course this was just video playing in my head, but still fun.

Ok, so I'm starting to wonder how not having a radio in my car is impacting my mental and emotional states. Now really, this is something that could be important....especially since I've been driving a lot lately. For the past month, I've had no radio. No audio stimulation. So, instead of randomly generated song patterns, or predictable compact ( Read more... )

Last time I left Chicago (Tuesday), It took me 4 hours to get to work....now.....I could have stayed in Marcus's bed for another 1.5 hours, damnit. And I'd just gotten barely 2 hours sleep. Now, I get to head off to work in 1 hour to, well, work. I should have called in sick, taken a vacation day ( Read more... )

I just went through my "box of things I keep." I almost teared up.