First of all, yay for updating this thing :) Second, how ironic that the topic is attention,lol, seeing as how our convo was totally surrounding that. I've decided that the need for attention is definitely something that comes and goes. I've also learned that went you want it most is usually when you don't get any at all, which pretty much stinks. So in conclusion to my inconclusive ramblings, LOL, I have no idea what it means, but maybe you can suck a little comfort out of the fact that I know totally how ya feel. Whew!And im gonna stop talking now.... peace out, much love <3 (umm, thats supposed to be a heart, lol)
fwd to the great physician...
anonymous
November 7 2005, 07:13:27 UTC
Dear Ryan, I think you shed light on your own problem. You only truly enjoy me when my neighbor Contentment is hanging with us. You've forgotten the times I've been with you and you didn't enjoy it. I've embarrassed you, brought to light things you didn't want people to see. Forced you into spotlights you did not want to stand in. Do not forget I am a magnifying glass on the good and the bad. Jesus used to give me to people when no one else would so that others would be able to see them better and more honestly. I have been stolen, however, and mass produced by competetors. They tried to copy me and sell me in a form that made you think I was one with Contentment. They included a mix to make you feel good for a season and like a drug I became addictive. But like any cheap imitation I faded all too quickly. Please remember that it is not my high you seek after but the physician who first prescribed me to you. I am not a bad guy, I am not a good guy. I am simply a tool of The guy, and I am not the one you should be writing to
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she can't complain is the freakin worst song ever... I like your update :) thought provoking and yet all I could seem to focus on was the crappy music you're listening to :) I Hope you had a great weekend and didn't go into withdraw from not seeing Sterl and myself... mario kart tomorrow? :) have a good day and I'm praying for you as it is your ministy day and what not :) bye!!
That exchange between you Ryan, and "Attention" has got to be one of the most profound exchanges ever to occur on LJ. I love the way you wrote that, and the response was amazing. Good times. I read 'em twice cause it they were so well written. Deep thoughts...I love it!
Dear Ryan, This is loneliness. I am not the guy looking out for your best interest. I make you depressed, self-pitying, bitter, even angry. And like you said, sin can very well result by indulging in me. You must let go of me, because you can only find your good friend contment when you indulge deeply in the Lord Jesus Christ. He is the only one who can bring you true happiness, not I or my arch rival attention. So whenever you feel me creeping up on you, remember to just say no, I have no room for you in my life!
So I decided that when I write like this, when instead of real names I put certain feelings, that even though its amazingly symbolic , its really confusing!! You all have such great points that I want to thank you specifically, but I have no idea who any of you guys are. So I guess the best thing I can do is just to thank you in this form, even though in my heart I dont know who to give the credit to :) Have a great day. God bless.
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I think you shed light on your own problem. You only truly enjoy me when my neighbor Contentment is hanging with us. You've forgotten the times I've been with you and you didn't enjoy it. I've embarrassed you, brought to light things you didn't want people to see. Forced you into spotlights you did not want to stand in. Do not forget I am a magnifying glass on the good and the bad. Jesus used to give me to people when no one else would so that others would be able to see them better and more honestly. I have been stolen, however, and mass produced by competetors. They tried to copy me and sell me in a form that made you think I was one with Contentment. They included a mix to make you feel good for a season and like a drug I became addictive. But like any cheap imitation I faded all too quickly. Please remember that it is not my high you seek after but the physician who first prescribed me to you. I am not a bad guy, I am not a good guy. I am simply a tool of The guy, and I am not the one you should be writing to ( ... )
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This is loneliness. I am not the guy looking out for your best interest. I make you depressed, self-pitying, bitter, even angry. And like you said, sin can very well result by indulging in me. You must let go of me, because you can only find your good friend contment when you indulge deeply in the Lord Jesus Christ. He is the only one who can bring you true happiness, not I or my arch rival attention. So whenever you feel me creeping up on you, remember to just say no, I have no room for you in my life!
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