"Are you wasting away in your skin?"

[rybuddy5]

I am not at all one for emo entries...for some reason I don't like to admit that I had a bad day and then talk about it...weirdness for sure. And today was actually very good until this last hour I guess. I have been trying to put up some entries for the past week, but I would get about as far as I am now and then just decide that it would be

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[jess_matti]

Hey Ryan! I know things must be weird for you this break, I know it is for Amy, too. If you feel like a certain "mind" is stronger than yours, as far as dealing with the current situation, then I'm a little skeptical as to what is the agenda of this entry?

[rybuddy5]

I am pretty confused by your comment...I hope that it is not implying that I am trying to send some sort of message or say anything other than how I feel because I am not. All that line meant was that I think that Amy can put things out of her mind better than I can at times, which is a good thing, and that I wish I could do the same. And I said that it makes me feel better knowing this because I know that although I have caused a lot of hurt, she is going to make it through. Honestly, the entry served no other purpose than to explain how I am feeling during this break.

[jess_matti]

Ooof, my apologies.

No, I wasn't implying that you were trying to say anything other than how you feel. Heh, I hesitated to make this comment, and now I regret I did. I tactifully (maybe too late, I understand) withdraw, as the matter is not directly my business. I just get a little overprotective sometimes.

[rybuddy5]

I understand and yet don't quite understand, but no worries, for no damage has been done, although I am wondering what you were thinking but I will not pursue it since the subject is a little sensitive. And I am not sure why the entry caused you to be protective, but I can totally understand how you could become protective since that is the sad nature about break ups...inevitably sides are drawn (not necessarily maliciously so, like in this case) and of course your allegiance is to Amy. It is funny for I hesitated posting that last entry...I tried to write one for at least a week and then ending up deleting them. While I do not have regret about posting it, I still probably shouldn't have and I reckon I won't mention it again for a very long time. Well, I hope there are no hard feelings and I sincerely hope you have a nice break!