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[ryguy45]

It's weird how you can love someone, yet they make you feel like total shit. It's weird how someone claims to be your friend, but they always ignore you. Every question gets replied with nothing. They might as well call you nothing. It's weird how someone doesn't tell you the truth because they don't want to hurt your feelings, yet they will make

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heyyyyyy nothing

[lirp]

hey ryan... I'm sure this "person" didn't lead you on- I'm sure this "person" has told you right from the beginning not to waste your time on them- I'm sure this "person" only wanted to be your friend from the start, and I'm pretty sure this "person" doesn't ignore you! Don't blame others for your unhappiness, you have to create that joy in your life yourself.

Re: heyyyyyy nothing

[ryguy45]

No Apryll this person has not. This person being you. Way way back when was the only time you ever mentioned anything about wasting time with you, OH wait that's right not even that. Before you were going out with Cody I asked if we could ever go on a date or go out or something and you said "I might have gone out with you if you asked me before Cody did. Until then I haven't heard of anything until the past month. I would have liked to find this conversation , but it was saved on a CD that I've been looking for hours amongst hundreds of other CDs so I don't have any proof of the conversation , but I know what you said. You ignore me more everyday. You thought of me much fonder awhile back. You don't care anymore. You're just another Ashly. I'm not blaming others for my unhappiness, but I'm just saying in the state I am I can't make myself happy by myself. You never walked in my shoes therefore you'll never know what's going on now in my life or previously in my life. No one does so I wish everyone would shut the hell up

[goalie_00]

Hey Ryan. I wish I could tell you not to worry, but I'm guessing you hear that from everyone. I don't know what else to say buddy. You have to be less possesive and loosen up, man. I think you are one of the coolest guys in school, but you keep shooting yourself in the foot. I was in close to the same position last year so I know how this goes. Ask Apryll. I wouldn't talk about things and then I would get mad and send stupid emails or write something that pissed people off in my lj. You remind me of me, you really do.

[ryguy45]

I thank you for your concern. But, what makes you think I send stupid e-mails though? (hmmm I wonder who could have said something?) You think emails that reflect how I feel are stupid? Why am I shooting myself in the foot? I always talk about how I feel so I'm confused by what you mean.

[ryguy45]

You know I understand that you are trying to be a good friend, which you are, but you are viewing this from this from the happy guy with the girl perspective,while I'm viewing it from the "why does this shit keep happening?, why don't I ever have the right stuff?" perspective.

[goalie_00]

Except you forget I don't have the girl. Things keep happening that would piss people off normally, but I don't care. Life is to short to keep worrying. I dunno... try not talking about your feelings. If people come to you, you'll know that they really care.