Fic: Queer as Folk: If He Died 1/1

[ryosato]

Title: If He Died
Author: ryosato
Series: Queer as Folk
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Brian/Justin angst, Brian/Michael what-if
AN: HAY! This is a one-shot I wrote forever ago. I don't think I ever posted it. If I did um. Okay. But I don't think so, so...  here it is! :D

Comments

[sfscarlet]

um- wow- this makes a really good story- I would love to see it expanded.

[ryosato]

Thank you! ^_^ For now this is just a one-shot... I've got two other Brian/Michael fics going. XD;; Both of them feature Justin some too, tho. :3

[no_pretending]

yes, yes, YES! god, i love your fanfics) even if i can find brian/justin there :P and i don`t mind that brian loves justin it`s normal because wtf it`s 5 years))) but mikey, oh, i love you once, i love you still, i always have, i always will 8)

so...

[ryosato]

I believe Brian loves Justin... but with that age difference and their many similarities and Brian's parental thing towards him...I think its more complicated and tied up with lots of dark stuff. Michael is the one he has real adult romantic love for imo.

[ryosato]

Oh and you can always translate them! :) I'm flattered!

[cksan]

May I being nosy and ask what language you will be translate? I'm curious as cat. XD

[angelsmile1]

I so love this. I have been wanting to read some good new Brian/Michael fic lately and here it is. I also like the fact that you do not ignore Brian's feelings for Justin, but contrast it with his deeper feelings for Michael. Would that only Cowlip had the vision and courage to see and show this. I am on to find more Brian/Michael fic. Thanks for sharing.

[ryosato]

Thank you thank you! :) (You know about my other Br/M fics, right? Check those out~)

[cksan]

I’d scatter your ashes in the Louvre.
Dear lord, did Justin really say that on the show? Sometimes I wonder how may lines Randy forced to say as punishment. Poor poor Randy.

I like you tide Brian's reaction to when he tried to kill himself. And during that time, Michael wasn't dying he just leaving, but its still the same abandon to Brian. Some one from our chinese forum said, if Justin is the sunshine to Brian's life, Michael is the air, you just cannot live without the air.

"I'd kill myself." Not sure if Brian would actually say out loud, or he just saying it without noticing. Don't get me wrong, I like your Brian, always think your Brian is dead spot on. But maybe this time it would be better to have Justin asked something like "or would you kill yourself?" then getting the silence reaction from Brian, "So this is the truth?" Justin asked with a shaky voice. But then again, there would be no "Then you should tell him," line. Arrghh.. I'm asking too much.

Still, thank you for this lovely fic. >3

[ryosato]

He didn't say it in the show - it just seemed like a very Justin thing to me. XD Romantic and absolutely silly.

I did think about that line... the reason I decided Brian would say it is it's post-season-5 and I think by that time he'd gotten better about saying how he feels and stuff. Plus sometimes he just blurts out serious stuff like that, I think to push others away. Poor Justin. XD;;

Thank you for reading~!!! <3

[cksan]

Wishing you a very Merry Christmas. I know its early, but can't wait to share this with you!

[ryosato]

The next flashback chapter is up~~~

[brikey4ever]

so you're the famous Lavender! I'm a Chinese BMfan. I've read your fics which had been translated into Chinese by someone, and I love your stories very very much!

[ryosato]

Aw, thank you!! ^_^ San is the one translating them, if you know her. It's so shocking to me that people around the world read my fanfic!!!! o.o I am really honored!!!