Fanfic: Restart
Summary: Pi-chan and Ryo's letters to each other.
Warning: Probably Out of Character (i still can't figure out how to indent and I know how to post on community's!)
Note: Was probably inspired by Prisoner of Lover without me knowing. I wrote this because my friend said she was tired, i got dramatic and wrote this. ^-^
Rating:Pg-13
(I fail at rating as much as i fail at everything else...)
Dear Pi-chan,
You tell me not to worry, that everything is fine, that you’re my everything. You tell me that you love me more than anything in this dark world. You tell me lies about hanging out with friend yet I see you throwing yourself to random men. You tell me we will be together for eternity but all the words you say sound like empty lies. Words with so much meaning now seems like abandoned toys. Every time I’m with you I feel like I’m loosing parts of myself. I know that your love for me will never last but I don’t want to let go, but if letting our love go would make you happier, I wouldn’t mind, no matter how much I don’t want to. Have you ever thought of letting go? Can you feel our love fading? This is the end of our story isn’t it? Is it possible for us to still be together without getting hurt? Yamashita Tomohisa I love you. Let this story end until we are ready for this love to begin yet again. Until that day I, Nishikido Ryo will wait for it.
Sincerley,
Ryo
Dear Ryo-chan,
Telling you how much I love you , how you are my everything, and not to worry because we will be together for eternity, they weren’t lies. My love for you is still here, stronger than any flame. My words may now seem like plain, white lies but, saying I love you isn’t something I could easily say to anyone like how it isn’t for you. Everytime I’m with you I feel guilt eating me. Making you feel this way makes my heart cry. Would you forgive me if I tell you what I’ve done? Would you break down and cry? Would you still love and accept me? What would you do if I told you I didn’t want to let go? Its not that our love is fading, but that I’ve let my loneliness consume me. If you gave me another chance, we can be together without hurting each other. For what I’ve done I apologize, hate me as much as you want when you know the truth but let me love you forever. You don’t have to act so strong, if we are together once again let me comfort you. Ryo, this story, of the two of us, I will wait for it to continue because I won‘t let it end.
Sincerley,
Yamapi
Dear Pi-chan,
I believe your words of I love you. To me its really important, it makes me happy to know that our love wasn’t fake. What is it that you’ve done, that is strong enough to torture you this way? If its sleeping around with many women and men than I already know. I didn’t say anything because I was wishing that it was all a dream, but its reality and I have to face it. Now that I know guilt is eating your heart, I want to forgive you. I’ve broke down and cried many times, alone in the darkness, desperate for your warmth to comfort me. If you don’t want to than don’t let go, grab on to this rope that is about to rip and tape it back with love so strong that it will never rip. The loneliness you felt, was it because I was away in Osaka? Is it hard to be with me? Telling me to hate you I don‘t think its possible, even if my mind tells me to hate you I know my heart wouldn’t accept the hate. Save us Pi-chan, can you put back pieces of a puzzle that no longer fit? Is such things like this even possible in this world?
Sincereley,
Ryo
Dear Ryo-chan,
Thank you for believing my words. These words are important to me too, memories of you blushing and hiding after saying these three words, will always be with me. You knew I have been sleeping around but kept it in, please forgive me. I was lonely when you were away in Osaka, jealousy would run through me like water running through pipes when I see you with members of Kanjani8 or NEWS or anyone other than me. I couldn’t control myself, my body was like another person. I didn’t want to hurt you so I hurt other people I slept with. It didn’t feel any better but I no longer was able to stop. I would feel so much guilt that I tried to lessen it by telling you all these things you thought were lies. I wanted the two of us to feel right, I wanted you to feel my love. I didn’t want you to get hurt from what I’ve done. Its not hard to be with you, I just didn’t want to break you because I know your not really as strong as everyone thinks. Lets go somewhere, lets go to the place we first met. I’ll save us and this love of ours.
Sincerely,
Yamapi
Dear Pi-chan,
Don’t you think its funny how we are writing our feelings out into words? We see each other at work almost everyday yet we choose to communicate through letters. Loneliness and jealousy, those two emotions are so familiar to me. This time don’t loose yourself, don’t let those emotions win. Being strong is hard sometimes I want to just give up but its not me, I want to try my best to be strong. Lets go to that place, for us to be together again. In a week lets meet up to leave for that place, to visit the place where we first met. I will love you forever.
Sincerely,
Ryo Dear, Ryo-chan
Writing a letter is less embarrassing than saying it out loud for you. Its easier for us to speak for ourselves. This time I won’t loose to these emotions because I regret loosing. Around me you don’t have to be strong, yes, lets go to that place, to where everything started, to Hawaii. Let our love last for eternity.
Sincerely,
Yamapi
Warning: Probably Out of Character (i still can't figure out how to indent and I know how to post on community's!)
Note: Was probably inspired by Prisoner of Lover without me knowing. I wrote this because my friend said she was tired, i got dramatic and wrote this. ^-^
Rating:Pg-13
(I fail at rating as much as i fail at everything else...)
Dear Pi-chan,
You tell me not to worry, that everything is fine, that you’re my everything. You tell me that you love me more than anything in this dark world. You tell me lies about hanging out with friend yet I see you throwing yourself to random men. You tell me we will be together for eternity but all the words you say sound like empty lies. Words with so much meaning now seems like abandoned toys. Every time I’m with you I feel like I’m loosing parts of myself. I know that your love for me will never last but I don’t want to let go, but if letting our love go would make you happier, I wouldn’t mind, no matter how much I don’t want to. Have you ever thought of letting go? Can you feel our love fading? This is the end of our story isn’t it? Is it possible for us to still be together without getting hurt? Yamashita Tomohisa I love you. Let this story end until we are ready for this love to begin yet again. Until that day I, Nishikido Ryo will wait for it.
Sincerley,
Ryo
Dear Ryo-chan,
Telling you how much I love you , how you are my everything, and not to worry because we will be together for eternity, they weren’t lies. My love for you is still here, stronger than any flame. My words may now seem like plain, white lies but, saying I love you isn’t something I could easily say to anyone like how it isn’t for you. Everytime I’m with you I feel guilt eating me. Making you feel this way makes my heart cry. Would you forgive me if I tell you what I’ve done? Would you break down and cry? Would you still love and accept me? What would you do if I told you I didn’t want to let go? Its not that our love is fading, but that I’ve let my loneliness consume me. If you gave me another chance, we can be together without hurting each other. For what I’ve done I apologize, hate me as much as you want when you know the truth but let me love you forever. You don’t have to act so strong, if we are together once again let me comfort you. Ryo, this story, of the two of us, I will wait for it to continue because I won‘t let it end.
Sincerley,
Yamapi
Dear Pi-chan,
I believe your words of I love you. To me its really important, it makes me happy to know that our love wasn’t fake. What is it that you’ve done, that is strong enough to torture you this way? If its sleeping around with many women and men than I already know. I didn’t say anything because I was wishing that it was all a dream, but its reality and I have to face it. Now that I know guilt is eating your heart, I want to forgive you. I’ve broke down and cried many times, alone in the darkness, desperate for your warmth to comfort me. If you don’t want to than don’t let go, grab on to this rope that is about to rip and tape it back with love so strong that it will never rip. The loneliness you felt, was it because I was away in Osaka? Is it hard to be with me? Telling me to hate you I don‘t think its possible, even if my mind tells me to hate you I know my heart wouldn’t accept the hate. Save us Pi-chan, can you put back pieces of a puzzle that no longer fit? Is such things like this even possible in this world?
Sincereley,
Ryo
Dear Ryo-chan,
Thank you for believing my words. These words are important to me too, memories of you blushing and hiding after saying these three words, will always be with me. You knew I have been sleeping around but kept it in, please forgive me. I was lonely when you were away in Osaka, jealousy would run through me like water running through pipes when I see you with members of Kanjani8 or NEWS or anyone other than me. I couldn’t control myself, my body was like another person. I didn’t want to hurt you so I hurt other people I slept with. It didn’t feel any better but I no longer was able to stop. I would feel so much guilt that I tried to lessen it by telling you all these things you thought were lies. I wanted the two of us to feel right, I wanted you to feel my love. I didn’t want you to get hurt from what I’ve done. Its not hard to be with you, I just didn’t want to break you because I know your not really as strong as everyone thinks. Lets go somewhere, lets go to the place we first met. I’ll save us and this love of ours.
Sincerely,
Yamapi
Dear Pi-chan,
Don’t you think its funny how we are writing our feelings out into words? We see each other at work almost everyday yet we choose to communicate through letters. Loneliness and jealousy, those two emotions are so familiar to me. This time don’t loose yourself, don’t let those emotions win. Being strong is hard sometimes I want to just give up but its not me, I want to try my best to be strong. Lets go to that place, for us to be together again. In a week lets meet up to leave for that place, to visit the place where we first met. I will love you forever.
Sincerely,
Ryo Dear, Ryo-chan
Writing a letter is less embarrassing than saying it out loud for you. Its easier for us to speak for ourselves. This time I won’t loose to these emotions because I regret loosing. Around me you don’t have to be strong, yes, lets go to that place, to where everything started, to Hawaii. Let our love last for eternity.
Sincerely,
Yamapi