my friend, the person i was supposed to move with, got kicked out of her house the other day. her dad threatened her and laughed in her face while her and her sister were gathering their stuff, and right now as it stands, as of next week, they're officially homeless.
i'm the worst person in the entire world, because when she told me, after i felt bad for her, all i could think about was how all the plans i had could be ruined, and how everything i've been dreaming about and living for might never happen. this was the first time i had been hopeful for the future in my entire life, the first time i could imagine living. i do feel horrible that it happened to her because i love her to death and i never want her hurt or in trouble, but at the same time, i feel an incredibly selfish and overwhelming amount of disappointment and self-pity.
this is probably not what you wanted to know, but there you have it.
i am so sorry, hon. *hugs* but i can completely understand where you're coming from. as human beings we are naturally selfish so i think it's only normal that you're feeling like that. i know that probably doesn't make you feel any better about how you think you should be feeling but... that's all i can think to say.
Sometimes I care about other people more than myself and my mom gets mad at me for it. I get anxious about the littlest things until someone calms it over for me and I'll be okay for a little while. I also love screaming over the sound of horror movies even though it doesn't exactly help.
i'm exactly the same sometimes, it's weird. i get really anxious about little things and i have to have someone go through whatever it is that i have to do entirely so that i know 100% in my head and then it's all good but if there's any shadow of a doubt... not good.
Hmm..something random about myself.. Well ever since I was like..10? or around that age and I watched 'The Truman Show' for the first time, I've felt that my every movement is being watched and broadcast to the entire world. It's kind of a silly fear, and usually doesn't stop me from doing/ saying things, I just remind myself that no one is allowed to confront me about it because that would totally expose what they're doing to me. =/ As lame as this makes me, I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only person who has this fear.
I also never believed in Father Christmas, I'm not sure if I'm alone on that or not.
oh my god, i do the same kind of thing sometimes. i'll be sitting around and then i randomly think of the movie and imagine i'm being watched. it's creepy but kind of awesome?
you're probably not alone in that. i don't know when i officially stopped believing in father christmas but i always seem to remember i was really small so... maybe i just never did. i don't know.
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especially when i'm trying to write vinnie, wtf D:
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i'm the worst person in the entire world, because when she told me, after i felt bad for her, all i could think about was how all the plans i had could be ruined, and how everything i've been dreaming about and living for might never happen. this was the first time i had been hopeful for the future in my entire life, the first time i could imagine living. i do feel horrible that it happened to her because i love her to death and i never want her hurt or in trouble, but at the same time, i feel an incredibly selfish and overwhelming amount of disappointment and self-pity.
this is probably not what you wanted to know, but there you have it.
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Well ever since I was like..10? or around that age and I watched 'The Truman Show' for the first time, I've felt that my every movement is being watched and broadcast to the entire world. It's kind of a silly fear, and usually doesn't stop me from doing/ saying things, I just remind myself that no one is allowed to confront me about it because that would totally expose what they're doing to me.
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As lame as this makes me, I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only person who has this fear.
I also never believed in Father Christmas, I'm not sure if I'm alone on that or not.
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you're probably not alone in that. i don't know when i officially stopped believing in father christmas but i always seem to remember i was really small so... maybe i just never did. i don't know.
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