Save me- ?xSetsuki
Title: Save Me[1/1]
Pairing: Technically, it's YuuxSetsuki but then again, it's by a first POV basis so I suppose it could be any pairing...with Sechi ¬¬;;.
Band: 176BIZ
Rated: Meh...PG13?
Genre: Angst/Drama
Comment: My very first 176BIZ fikku~ ^.^ I'm surprised though...176BIZ happened to be a band I've recently discovered about a month or two ago and now I'm soooo addicted to their songs! XDDD All the bands that I liked have that effect on meh. XP But I'd say this is the first recent band that I've actually wanted to write a fikku. *-*...*coughs* So yeah.
Also a few notes...
I'm working on the third part to Ruki's birthday (OMG! It's almost been a month! O______O I need to hurry!!!!) but this is a little something I wanted to post up before then. ^^ <3 Think of it as a stress reliever since I have so much work to do. X.x;;
I'm also having another fikku done before the end of this month...guess who? ^.^
And why did I chose this band to write? Because I'm totally obsessed with Setsuki. @_@ Ever since I saw a clip of him and his former band, Karen, together. X.x;;; Urrrrrk~
As for teh final note, this fikku ish based upon first POV....Setsuki's in fact. Just because I wanted him to but then again...I think I'm gonna make him cry. T^T I'm crying...T^T
*dies*
Summary I can't pretend anymore...knowing that you've thought of me no more than just a friend...
What am I to you?
This question had always appeared in my mind every time I gazed upon you. It was chanted over and over until I could no longer know what to think of our relationship.
Yes, I know our relationship is that of friends and band members but…
What’s the point of it when I couldn’t think of us as friends?
You know…I always find these feelings of mine as nonexistent. We’re just friends…that’s all. Friends who mess around with each other and have fun with each other’s company.
I kept telling myself that if I were to tell you of my feelings, it would break our relationship as well as the band’s.
It’s not possible…
Even though I’ve said that in my mind so many times, my heart ached.
Whatever I did…whatever you did…I could never forget what’s inside my mind nor my heart.
I hate it.
If these feelings of mine were ceased to exist…I would feel differently. I wouldn’t need to think about it. I wouldn’t need to feel it. I wouldn’t…
Well…too bad that would never happen…because I’ve already fallen for you.
You and only you.
And that's why...
I want to leave.
Not in a way where one would take a train and temporarily separate until time permits but...in a way where one would forever separate from everyone.
I know you probably wouldn't understand this so I wouldn't pressed on.
And now,...sitting here on the roof of the company my band belonged in, I watched the clouds drifted slowly towards the horizon.
Well, what can I do but sit here and stare? Practice was over an hour ago...and I really have no intention of talking to anyone. Not at all.
Staring down at my watch,...a birthday gift from you...I sighed as soon as I found out it was time.
Okay... I slowly got up and jumped over the railing. I feel a bit nauseated from glancing down from the building. Grasping hard onto the railing, I then heaved another sigh.
Just...let me go...and watch me fall. Then I wouldn't have anything to be worried about. Because watching you from afar...is really tearing me apart.
Suddenly, the door slammed open as you, of all people, showed up. Of all people...it has to be you.
"S-Sechi..."
I winced by that nickname you and the band had given me ever since we've first started 176BIZ.
Glancing at you dully, I slowly muttered, "...How'd you know I was here?"
You shook your head vigorously before trying to reason, "Sechi! Don't do it! This is not like you!"
I snorted at your remark. "Not like me, you say? What is there to like about me? I never thought of myself as important to anyone. Why does it matter?"
"What do you mean you're not important?!" I was surprised to hear your voice rise in shock and disbelief. "Of course, you're important! You're a part of this band. You're a part of us! You're our friend!"
Gazing down, I then replied softly, "...That's right...I'm just a friend to you..."
"What?" you asked, your voice held confusion.
"That's the thing...you're my friend. That's what bothers me the most, unfortunately..."
You just stared at me, somewhat dumbstruck as much as I could tell. Shrugging, I turned away as I leaned down from the railing.
"S-Sechi! Chotto matte yo!!" Turning back once again, I accidentally let go of the railing.
"SETSUKI!!"
As I fell, the first and probably last thing I see...was you running towards me. Closing my eyes slowly, I let myself fall.
Fall away from the one I loved most...to the depths of hell.
Just when I thought I'm free and yet lost...
I found my eyes slowly peeked into a blurry figure in front of me.
Yours.
Blinking repeatedly, my eyes then widened.
How...?
"Setsuki..." The nest thing I knew, I was in your arms...and that's when I figured you're crying.
"Why...?" I mummured. "Why did you save me?"
No reply was given until...
"Because..." you started. "I love you."
Those words impacted me like a ton of bricks.
...You love me?
Am I dreaming? Am I in heaven because I already died?
"I really do love you. Ever since...we've first met."
I feel my eyes pricked with tears.
...I've been saved, have I?
From this hell of lonliness...and into your heart.
Teh End
Pairing: Technically, it's YuuxSetsuki but then again, it's by a first POV basis so I suppose it could be any pairing...with Sechi ¬¬;;.
Band: 176BIZ
Rated: Meh...PG13?
Genre: Angst/Drama
Comment: My very first 176BIZ fikku~ ^.^ I'm surprised though...176BIZ happened to be a band I've recently discovered about a month or two ago and now I'm soooo addicted to their songs! XDDD All the bands that I liked have that effect on meh. XP But I'd say this is the first recent band that I've actually wanted to write a fikku. *-*...*coughs* So yeah.
Also a few notes...
I'm working on the third part to Ruki's birthday (OMG! It's almost been a month! O______O I need to hurry!!!!) but this is a little something I wanted to post up before then. ^^ <3 Think of it as a stress reliever since I have so much work to do. X.x;;
I'm also having another fikku done before the end of this month...guess who? ^.^
And why did I chose this band to write? Because I'm totally obsessed with Setsuki. @_@ Ever since I saw a clip of him and his former band, Karen, together. X.x;;; Urrrrrk~
As for teh final note, this fikku ish based upon first POV....Setsuki's in fact. Just because I wanted him to but then again...I think I'm gonna make him cry. T^T I'm crying...T^T
*dies*
Summary I can't pretend anymore...knowing that you've thought of me no more than just a friend...
What am I to you?
This question had always appeared in my mind every time I gazed upon you. It was chanted over and over until I could no longer know what to think of our relationship.
Yes, I know our relationship is that of friends and band members but…
What’s the point of it when I couldn’t think of us as friends?
You know…I always find these feelings of mine as nonexistent. We’re just friends…that’s all. Friends who mess around with each other and have fun with each other’s company.
I kept telling myself that if I were to tell you of my feelings, it would break our relationship as well as the band’s.
It’s not possible…
Even though I’ve said that in my mind so many times, my heart ached.
Whatever I did…whatever you did…I could never forget what’s inside my mind nor my heart.
I hate it.
If these feelings of mine were ceased to exist…I would feel differently. I wouldn’t need to think about it. I wouldn’t need to feel it. I wouldn’t…
Well…too bad that would never happen…because I’ve already fallen for you.
You and only you.
And that's why...
I want to leave.
Not in a way where one would take a train and temporarily separate until time permits but...in a way where one would forever separate from everyone.
I know you probably wouldn't understand this so I wouldn't pressed on.
And now,...sitting here on the roof of the company my band belonged in, I watched the clouds drifted slowly towards the horizon.
Well, what can I do but sit here and stare? Practice was over an hour ago...and I really have no intention of talking to anyone. Not at all.
Staring down at my watch,...a birthday gift from you...I sighed as soon as I found out it was time.
Okay... I slowly got up and jumped over the railing. I feel a bit nauseated from glancing down from the building. Grasping hard onto the railing, I then heaved another sigh.
Just...let me go...and watch me fall. Then I wouldn't have anything to be worried about. Because watching you from afar...is really tearing me apart.
Suddenly, the door slammed open as you, of all people, showed up. Of all people...it has to be you.
"S-Sechi..."
I winced by that nickname you and the band had given me ever since we've first started 176BIZ.
Glancing at you dully, I slowly muttered, "...How'd you know I was here?"
You shook your head vigorously before trying to reason, "Sechi! Don't do it! This is not like you!"
I snorted at your remark. "Not like me, you say? What is there to like about me? I never thought of myself as important to anyone. Why does it matter?"
"What do you mean you're not important?!" I was surprised to hear your voice rise in shock and disbelief. "Of course, you're important! You're a part of this band. You're a part of us! You're our friend!"
Gazing down, I then replied softly, "...That's right...I'm just a friend to you..."
"What?" you asked, your voice held confusion.
"That's the thing...you're my friend. That's what bothers me the most, unfortunately..."
You just stared at me, somewhat dumbstruck as much as I could tell. Shrugging, I turned away as I leaned down from the railing.
"S-Sechi! Chotto matte yo!!" Turning back once again, I accidentally let go of the railing.
"SETSUKI!!"
As I fell, the first and probably last thing I see...was you running towards me. Closing my eyes slowly, I let myself fall.
Fall away from the one I loved most...to the depths of hell.
Just when I thought I'm free and yet lost...
I found my eyes slowly peeked into a blurry figure in front of me.
Yours.
Blinking repeatedly, my eyes then widened.
How...?
"Setsuki..." The nest thing I knew, I was in your arms...and that's when I figured you're crying.
"Why...?" I mummured. "Why did you save me?"
No reply was given until...
"Because..." you started. "I love you."
Those words impacted me like a ton of bricks.
...You love me?
Am I dreaming? Am I in heaven because I already died?
"I really do love you. Ever since...we've first met."
I feel my eyes pricked with tears.
...I've been saved, have I?
From this hell of lonliness...and into your heart.
Teh End