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[rzrblad_confuzd]

I FUCKIN HATE BEING SAD!!!! all the shit going on with my parents has made me actually think about my life and how it is not what i wanted for myself!!! my life was such a mess before my stupid parents kicked me out and after...i honestly think it was that very second i just gave up!!! THIS ISN'T WHAT I FUCKIN PLANNED FOR MYSELF AND ITS KILLING ME

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[elvenwolfcub]

HUG HUG HUG
Let me ask you this..do you want to stop doing the drugs? burning yourself? cutting? If you do we should talk.

As for letting go of what happened. Its not easy but you have to forgive yourself no matter how it happened. There are ways to move on from this and learn from it without driving yourself mad.

as for your friend just be there for him as a friend. In time he will have to deal with this if he recovers enough to do so. Sorry Im sounding cold again dont mean to..

HUGGLES remember your loved!!!

[rzrblad_confuzd]

thanks. part of me wants to quit the drugs and the self abuse but there is a bigger part of me terrified of the pain i would feel if i did stop. it goes back for so many years and so many things...im scared out of my mind. i have tried so much to forgive myself for my accident and i hear everyone saying it wasn't my fault even the police but my car killed this kid. it was ruled intentional on the kids part...suicide. but if it weren't for me he would still be alive. i don't know how to forgive myself...it hurts so bad!!
thanks for your comment..it means alot.
hugs!

[grey_cain_3]

I'm so sorry to hear about all that, sweety. It's always hard living with such things on your soul. Your friend's going to have a very tough time ahead of him. In all honesty, if you want, I can give you my e-mail or even my cell phone number. Because now more than ever, it seems like you really could use a confidant, you know. And I'm not saying I'm the best one for the job, but I'd be more than willing to give it a try. ::hugs:: I'm here if you need me.

[rzrblad_confuzd]

thanks so much for your comments. it means so much (more then you know) for you to offer to be there and id love your email. having someone to talk to would be really nice seeing as how i have not a single person in my life that is there. you are a true sweetheart and thank you tons!!

[grey_cain_3]

All you had to do was ask.

here's my e-mail address: jinshugrey@aol.com

Feel free to e-mail me anytime you feel like it. I'm usually really good for responding in a good amount of time and such. Plus, it'd be nice to receive e-mails that aren't just newsletters and comment reminders. :P But in all seriousness, it'd be cool to talk outside of lj. Anyway, like I said, feel free to e-mail me anytime.