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[rzrblad_confuzd]

i've come to the realization that there is no alcohol strong enough, no bowl of weed deep enough, no razor blade sharp enough and never enough pills to make this pain im feeling go away. i can't pretend anymore, im not happy, and at this point i dunno if ill ever be happy. i don't know if ill ever find that place where i can go and be happy and

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[suicidalautopsy]

I know the feeling. Nothing ever helps, and the people you love and that love you feel it too because they feel so useless and the same pain you are feeling.
It's hard honey, I don't know what kind of advice to give, I'm still looking for the right answer as well.
I smoke pot whenever I can, and I drink whenever I can. (not only do I LOVE pot, but it calms me down, even though when the high goes away I'm a total crying - suicidal mess.)

You have my number honey. Call me ANYTIME, if my grumpy father answers just tell him It's Ashley and it's an emergency.

I love you honey, I am so thankfull we are talking again. <3<3

[rzrblad_confuzd]

yeah i wish all the answers would just fall into our laps, how easy would that be huh? i think the hardest part is knowing that we make those who love us feel useless and the same pain. if i had it my way i would stay high, drunk, or cut constantly just to avoid the total crying-suicidal mess. its scary becomeing that mess. i love you to huney and i to am so glad that we are talkin again. i will definitly give you a call when my jerk of a husband isn't around. i love you babe!!!