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[rzrblad_confuzd]

i have been having this really HUGE craving to get stoned off pain pill lately. i dunno i just really miss the feeling of being on them. really wish i had some. im thinkin of headin over to a urgent care on of these days. when i take a bunch of them i feel numb to everything physical and emotional...and i like that. i just wish that feeling

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[grey_cain_3]

You shouldn't be ashamed. Fear is a natural reaction to a situation with no apparent hope. I'm not saying that you are without hope, I'm just saying that it may appear as though there is none. But, you should know that just popping pills isn't going to solve that, sweety. ::hugs:: They don't last forever and by just doing that, you're not helping your situation. You might just end up escalating. I know, I don't have a lot of good things to say, and I know none of it is likely helping, but I just.... I'd just hate to see you go down this road and I know where this road leads and trust me.... it's not somewhere better than where you are. ::tears well up:: I just.... don't send yourself down a path that will inevitable only hinder you. No good can come from such an action. ::HUGS::

[rzrblad_confuzd]

i guess i feel so ashamed because now he is able to litterally break me down without a fight. i have no strength to stand up to him what so ever. and its okay...i am affraid to say this but i don't think there is any hope at this point...he took that hope away when he took away my strength to stand up for myself. that path your talking about...the dark scary one terrifies the living shit out of me but can be so luring at the same time. i guess at times it feels as if its the easier path to take. i just want to feel better and i don't know how to do that at this point :( **begins balling and grabbs for hugs**