SO MUCH TO DO = STRESSED ( Read more... )

To Start off, life is not going as great as I had hoped (college wise). Don't get me wrong, school isn't too bad, I guess it is beginning to stress me out, Like college Isnt expensive enough, I have to runout and buy a million materials for my classes. I tried to find the art  store all my teachers were telling me to go to last night and only ( Read more... )

"I love you, thanks for being my best girlfriend ever. I care for you so much."

That coming from the best boyfriend I could ask for, to the worst girlfriend in the world. Today is Ryan's birthday. Its not that I forgot, I just ran out of time. :( I had it all planned out ever since Christmas. This week was kind of stressful though. I moved into my ( Read more... )

I wanna go home. :(

I think I'm gonna start writing again, as I'm about to take a big step - going away to college. That step may be either big or small to others, but for me its a big change. I'll be living on my own (no mom or dad) with people I don't know. The last time I shared a room was when I was practically a toddler. How will I manage to share my space? Oh ( Read more... )

So today I finally met the lovely Viktoria. Gotta love the wifey. She was with Jesse, and I brought along Ryan. We all ended up going to the mall, but kind of just walked around aimlessly. I've done that numerous times, and somehow it never gets old. haha We went to see the puppies in the petstore and the funniest thing happened. The ex texted me ( Read more... )

Winter break has begun. I am so relieved that this semester is over. No more CSM, but I'm starting a whole new chapter. Kinda scary. So yes, definitely relieved that my work is all done, but now I have to worry about Christmas shopping. I have no idea what to get anybody and i only have a week left and little money. This Tuesday I go up to school ( Read more... )

Why do I talk to her? Most days, some of the things that come out of her mouth irritate the FUCK out of me! Ughh.

I just spent the last few hours drawing for my  "shelf-portrait", and I must say I am quite proud of myself. :) I actually sat down, planned it out, and started drawing each idea one at a time. I think this one is turning out much better than the last. I'm glad I started over. I still have to finish it and go over it in charcoal and do all the ( Read more... )

I don't like getting frustrated period, but even worse when I get frustrated at Ryan. I know he cares. He's the sweetest guy on the planet, but sometimes I just feel trapped. I want to be able to tell him everything, but sometimes I don't even know what to say. I guess recently I've realized how far behind I am. I'm starting to become attached to ( Read more... )