If You Are Prepared
I've spent all of today reading this fic instead of working on my stubborn Law paper... I got to the end of the second part and skipped to the last chapter and dammit...
Fuck, he does not die!!! Man, is this what all the Sirius fans felt? As if there's a lost chapter that got left out, the one that says, "just kidding! he didnt really die" and they live happily ever after. I havent even read the third part yet, and I dont feel guilty for cheating, but man... dammit, I read the last *chapter* and i want to cry, I feel like my heart is caught up in my throat, and I'm desperately wishing that I just missed something in the text. WHY why why?! Character death hurts bad enough anyway, but how to deal with it after so many chapters? After so many of the most beautiful and truthful interactions, of the bond that one makes with the characters even as you see them grow together, of how *RIGHT* it was and then the miraculous solution to the solution that you know about from the FIRST CHAPTERS never comes? Why? Why? Oh, it hurts... it hurts... I don't know what I can write to describe how I feel any more than this, and I don't know if I can go back and read that part III and face feeling all this again, and more. Damn, damn, damn. How can something SO good just end like that?!?!
Fuck, he does not die!!! Man, is this what all the Sirius fans felt? As if there's a lost chapter that got left out, the one that says, "just kidding! he didnt really die" and they live happily ever after. I havent even read the third part yet, and I dont feel guilty for cheating, but man... dammit, I read the last *chapter* and i want to cry, I feel like my heart is caught up in my throat, and I'm desperately wishing that I just missed something in the text. WHY why why?! Character death hurts bad enough anyway, but how to deal with it after so many chapters? After so many of the most beautiful and truthful interactions, of the bond that one makes with the characters even as you see them grow together, of how *RIGHT* it was and then the miraculous solution to the solution that you know about from the FIRST CHAPTERS never comes? Why? Why? Oh, it hurts... it hurts... I don't know what I can write to describe how I feel any more than this, and I don't know if I can go back and read that part III and face feeling all this again, and more. Damn, damn, damn. How can something SO good just end like that?!?!