Comments | saboonceo: Heartsore

saboonceo

Heartsore

Jan 18, 2006 14:52

I should just give up already.

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le_savant_fou January 18 2006, 21:23:59 UTC

no u shouldn't!!! anything is better than celebacy! yes, i know i spelt that wrong, but it was only to emphasize my point.

saboonceo January 20 2006, 23:40:35 UTC

I actually still think celibacy is a good idea. But I couldn't do it, I don't think. I was thinking about just giving up on trying to find a guy period. Just forget it, cuz it ain't happenin the way it should be.

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saboonceo January 20 2006, 23:43:25 UTC

Hey, I know this is gonna sound bad...but I could pretty much get laid now if I wanted to. But it's just not the way I want it to be. Which is the source of my distress. If I were to go out and get laid, then my entire sense of honour would crumble beneath me. And I actually put a lot of stock into my whole...having integrity thing.

Next! I didn't know you liked "scruffily sexy". I thought that was more of a me thing.

Good luck on your book report. :D

r0ck_r0yalty January 19 2006, 02:17:20 UTC

Don't give up, Aleya. Just give it a little time. Just be the awesome person that you are. I know it's hard, but trust me, I've had my share of issues. We'll have fun at the gym tomorrow, kay? *hugs*

+ Lourdes +

saboonceo January 20 2006, 23:43:40 UTC

Time's a bitch, haha.

offtheball January 19 2006, 03:29:58 UTC

Ok, so I called your house at 7:30am, but found out you were on campus, didn't know where so didn't call anyone. Called you at 10:34pm and asked Jamila(Jameela?) to have you call me, but I don't know if she will.... Love you. Call me. I'm home and available. And waiting.

<3

saboonceo January 21 2006, 20:31:14 UTC

Whoa, you knew the exact time that you called? Weirdness.

Thanks for being available, my little sugar granule. <3

lion_rose January 19 2006, 04:08:11 UTC

Hey, no, don't give up, honey. You actually are the really great person you think you need to pretend to be. Don't let this guy eat you up inside, and don't chew yourself out for how you feel, because you can't control who you're attracted to. It's one of the most pain-in-the-ass truths ever, it's something everyone hates to learn. And besides, who knows? All hope may not be lost. Stay optomistic, sweetie. *bighugs*

saboonceo January 20 2006, 23:47:09 UTC

Hmm, it's not so much blaming myself for how I feel, but so much as just being annoyed that no one seems to like me for being me. It's for all these other reasons that eventually end up making me feel pretty trashy, I dunno.

I'm way past "staying optimistic" though. I will expect the worst, and then be pleasantly surprised when I get anything better than that. That actually makes some logic, if you think about it.

Thanks for the words of wisdom, though.