so Steph's back in an institution.  I'm trying not to worry but I can't stop.  I feel guilty.  Like I should've done more.  I would do anything to be with her right now but I can't drive.  esp. to West Virginia.  I just wish she'd be happier.  I'm so fucking worried. :(

this weekend has been packed. Friday after a prettie sucky day at school, I had to go clean this house for 3 hours. but then after A LOT OF DIFFICULTIES I got to the g-ville/ TR game. Josie had to get this guy to give me directions for like 35 minutes, b/c we were at the new g-ville high, not sirrine stadium.  yikes. haha. My mom was super pissed. ( Read more... )

haha daniel just sent me that song. so i'm tripping out on that.but anyways.. The last few days have been okay i suppose. Nothing special. Schools just homo these days. Friday i get to see JOSIE! i'm going over there for the nite & i believe we're going to the game. aw i havent seen that hoe in months! I miss everyone lately. Esp. tabs & ( Read more... )

i hate my dads bullshit.

i was on the phone with aus & part of the convo went something like this:

dad:"well your mom and you mite think its funny but yall dont understand how close i am to ending it,all of it.".

:mom slams doors, goes to work:

me: "go for it dad. stop threatening and do it.

dad: "sabs you dont even care if i leave you. 3 ( Read more... )

today, twas total slowness. nothing happened all day. besides some tests. and odd conversations. all on account of stupid things. This weekend I believe I'm going to s-burg. Get to meets my bayngo. Hopefule. eeks.

must go study & clean.
Bahh.

Heather- I hope everything works out for you babes. I love you tons.

Team America was hilareus. Went w/ Daniel & them. As always. Now I got to go study for German & Chem.

fuck.

I love you guys.

I just woke up. 10 minutes ago. Alrede fucking pissed off. damn. fucking dad ( Read more... )

i'm such a rhymster ( Read more... )

psat's sucked.  so much boredom.  After school had Gapp meeting, then wendy wouldnt take me & daniel home.  So we had to beg brad,  more like chase him through the parkin lot before he finealee accepted.  Now i'm home.

I came up with more money for Germany.  Still need $84.  Donations are accepted.  haha. even change.

I'm so fuckin pathetic.

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so about an hour ago, i get a phone call from my niece. i hadnt talked to her in a week & i had just assumed she was grounded. turns out, she had tried to commit suicide (od), and then she's been in a mental instution. i'm so fuckin worried about her. if it wasnt for niki, i would be still bawlin. even thinkin about it makes me tear up. I ( Read more... )