I guess I've found out I really am just that silly girl that messes everything up. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I've run out of advice to give to Tyler concerning his condition; he has rejected all the simplistic suggestions I have given him to move on. He has to make that choice himself. I am tired of trying to prove to all of my ( Read more... )

Spoke to Tyler. Went exceptionally well considering our track record lately. I didn't cry. I just held my head high, spoke only truth, and didn't let him get to me. The most obvious thing about him right now is that he's sad. And as much as I sympathize and earnestly care for him, it is not within my power and/or my place to fix him of that now. I ( Read more... )

Again, I find myself bursting with emotion. Only this time, it is not suppressed tears or rage fighting to be released. It is....goodness. Instead of finding myself crying at silent moments, I am smiling involuntarily. I laugh far more than I ever did before. My sleepless nights are no longer caused by overwhelming pain and confusion, they are ( Read more... )

As a human, bad days come and go. But even the bad days seem coated with some secret sweetness. Though I am tired, I still function. Though I am in pain, I remember goodness. Though I cry, I can still smile. My cloud has no power; I see the sun shine through regardless. I allow my memories to overwhelm me, and for one moment, I am consumed with ( Read more... )

At certain moments in our lives we realize that it is a time to let go of everything we've known in order to protect one thing that has changed our lives. We risk all for the greater good. There will come a time when we realize that to lose everything is a fair price to pay for the moments of happiness we experience; however lasting or brief. When ( Read more... )

I sleep soundly once more ( Read more... )

If I cry, I cry for joy. If I sleep, I sleep peacefully. If I run, I run to meet you. If I lie, I lie to myself. If I stay, I stay for good. If I stand, I stand alone. If I die, I am reborn. If I give, I give what I have. If I love, I love completely. And if I live, I live for now ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I disappointed you all, I was only looking out for myself. I'm sorry you feel you have to choose sides, I had hoped we could all live in peace. I'm sorry you are forced to whisper behind my back, I thought we left that shit behind years ago. I'm sorry you disapprove of my actions, I cannot look for understanding. I'm sorry, I missed the ( Read more... )

I am not over. I have only begun. Thank you so much for the chance to prove to myself, that I can stand on my own, and to ask for help when I need it. I am thrilled to watch as adventures unfold, and to do my best for you. I just have to remember to breathe.

Catch me as I fall ( Read more... )