Fic: Falling into You
Title: Falling into You
Author: kayevelyn
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Simin
Rating: +17
Summary: Siwon and Sungmin's first time. From umberela's Wing!fic
Notes: For umberela for finishing her fic \o//// Because I really do adore her, and I loved helping her even if she wasn't always sure she wanted my help XD Congrats bb :DDD Also, title is caused by this:
umberela: ....for some reason i just got this image of siwon playing celine dion :| when he and sungmin try to bang :|
When they finally decided to do it, Sungmin didn’t tell anyone. Heechul had been hounding him about it, in his own way gently, because he wanted to make sure they both weren’t overstepping any boundaries. But they had been living together for almost seven months now and it just finally felt right. They had talked about it before, Siwon always the cautious one, and he kept promising Sungmin that he could wait, really it wasn’t that important. Him being in good working order, healthy and happy was more important than the erections that Sungmin heard him take care of each morning and each evening.
Siwon had finally let him help, in the bathroom, on nights when the sounds of Siwon whimpering got to be too much and he just had to see what was going on. He felt useless, his hands unable to grip just right because of the way his fingers had mended, but Siwon kissed him deep underneath the stream of water and Sungmin was able to ignore the heavy weight of his drenched clothing as Siwon thrust shallowly against his palm.
He told Siwon he in bed, the day after he was finally able to keep his eyes open the majority of the time. He needed to take that plunge while he still had the courage to say it. He twisted his hand in Siwon’s shirt as he whispered softly into his chest. “I think, tonight. If you wouldn’t mind.”
Siwon wrapped his arms around Sungmin tightly and he tensed on instinct but then relaxed as Siwon rubbed his back and nodded sleepily into his shoulder.
Sungmin was glad he didn’t say anything, though as the day wore on he found his nerves winding tight. He looked over the draft for his proposal six times before Siwon finally ushered him out of the house so they could get dinner. Sungmin barely noticed the looks Siwon got anymore, and the ones he did notice, mostly the ones from men, he could barely focus on because Siwon kept his hand on the small of Sungmin’s back most of the trip. Sungmin could barely breathe, he was so aware of Siwon.
Siwon stopped at the corner store on the way back to their apartment, and Sungmin waited outside while Siwon went in and bought something. Sungmin didn’t realize what it was until he saw the bouquet of flowers and he blushed because it was sappy and romantic and he felt himself falling in love with Siwon all over again.
The flowers were put into a vase once they got home, on their bureau, though Sungmin saw the contemplative look in Siwon’s eye.
“Maybe next time,” Sungmin said with a laugh. He was very conscious of their position all of a sudden. His eyes flicked to the open door, a habit he still couldn’t break and he felt guilty as Siwon followed the gaze.
“I’m going to use the shower,” Siwon finally said, stepping out of the room and Sungmin swallowed.
It gave him time to think, and time to gather his courage. The shower came on full blast and Sungmin slowly peeled his shirt off. It had been a few days since he had let Siwon touch him; he regretted that fact just a bit. The pants followed, and he was hesitant to step out of his boxers.
He was still standing in them when the shower shut off and he wondered how long he had been standing there, nervous out of his mind. He pushed his boxers down as he heard the bathroom door click open and he steeled himself because once Siwon stepped into the bedroom Sungmin was on him.
Siwon seemed surprised, and Sungmin used that to his advantage, hand cupping the back of his neck to pull him down. Siwon learned quickly though and he maneuvered them to the bed. Sungmin’s thighs hit the back of the bed and he gasped as he fell back, Siwon caging him in with his arms as they kissed.
He sucked in a deep breath, breaking the kiss as he looked into Siwon’s eyes. They were dark and it made Sungmin shudder and he pulled Siwon back for another kiss. He gasped as Siwon lifted him up and pushed his further back on the bed, and he gave Siwon’s shoulders a gentle shove, needing space. Siwon gave it to him, looking at Sungmin carefully.
He took two big gulps of air, before reaching to kiss Siwon again. Siwon returned the kiss, repositioning himself so he could lay back. It took Sungmin a few minutes to finally work up the nerve to stop focusing on the kissing, and actually move his hands, and he felt his own cock twitch in excitement at the thought of touching Siwon again.
His fingers moved experimentally down Siwon’s neck, to his chest where he had never taken much time to explore. His lips followed because he wanted this to be good for Siwon; Siwon was already giving him so much by letting him take his time. He sighed and carefully wrapped his lips around one nipple. Siwon let out a gasp and Sungmin felt his arm twitch and grab hold of the sheets instead of his hair.
Sungmin was grateful and he swirled his finger around Siwon’s other nipple to show his thanks. He moved down his chest carefully, and slowly, taking his time to steel himself for what he was going to do. Siwon still smelled like soap and Sungmin felt torn by it, because he liked the smell of Siwon, musk and all, but it made it easier to move passed Siwon’s hip and watch himself wrap his hand around Siwon’s half hard erection.
He swallowed, not used to that reaction and he had a moment of his inner voice screaming loudly that Siwon didn’t want this, and that he had done something wrong. He glanced up at Siwon, with his eyes screwed shut and his throat tense and Sungmin let out a breath as he realized that he hadn’t done anything wrong, Siwon would have told him.
He stroked, watching his hand and Siwon’s face at the same time. His chest expanded with each pant he let out and Sungmin loved seeing how his breathing got faster as his hand sped up. Siwon’s cock was now fully hard and Sungmin could barely breathe as he leaned forward, licking the tip of Siwon’s cock with his tongue.
Siwon bucked and he let out a curse. Sungmin blushed, afraid to do more as he saw how tightly Siwon’s fingers wrapped in the sheets. He liked the taste though, and so he pressed his lips around the head, careful, and super aware of how Siwon’s thighs twitched and he let out a curse.
“Sungmin,” he pleaded as Sungmin pulled back, releasing Siwon’s cock so he could grab the lube from the side table. He needed to do this now while his nerves were up.
Siwon watched, cock twitching as Sungmin applied too much lube to his fingers, and Siwon swiped some onto his own fingers, helping Sungmin prep him. Sungmin watched Siwon’s fingers push into himself and his hand dropped to his own cock. He stroked in time with Siwon and when Siwon pulled his fingers out he nodded, allowing Sungmin to press his cock against him.
Sungmin took a deep breath and closed his eyes, afraid to watch Siwon’s face because it had to hurt, he thought, even with the tight heat wrapped around his cock as he sunk forward. When he was fully inside, he carefully pulled back, resting his palms on Siwon’s hips.
Siwon moaned and Sungmin’s eyes snapped open and he just had to watch because the sounds Siwon was making were getting increasingly more desperate as he pulled back slowly and pushed forward again.
His knees were already starting to hurt and even through the haze of being inside Siwon the pain was there. He tried to put it out of his mind, and tried to focus on Siwon because his erection was there and Sungmin wanted it to stay there, and he if he stopped it would stop and this would be a failure.
“Sungmin.” Siwon’s voice broke through the pain and Sungmin stopped.
His knees were shaking and he realized that Siwon was pulling away and no, this could not be a failure.
“You’re in pain.”
Sungmin felt stupid because there were tears welling up in his eyes and he wasn’t that type of person, he had no reason to be crying because it was only a little bit of pain against getting better, and he needed this. Siwon needed this.
“Doesn’t matter,” he muttered, trying to shift so he could be back between Siwon’s thighs but Siwon grabbed him, tossed him onto his back and for a split second he wasn’t there in their room and it scared him.
“Sungmin, I love you.” It was said with too much care and tenderness and Sungmin couldn’t fight him because he was slack jawed and thinking maybe Siwon crossed a boundary somewhere as his wrists were held by his hands.
“You.” His eyes darted to his wrists and Siwon pulled his hands away quickly but he didn’t stop hovering above him.
“I love you. This isn’t supposed to hurt you. You’re supposed to enjoy it.”
“I was,” Sungmin said lamely, and his cock twitched to show that he had been, on some level.
Siwon wrapped his fingers around his cock and Sungmin tensed, barely relaxing as Siwon began to stroke with strong hands. “Relax,” Siwon said. “I love you.”
Sungmin gasped as Siwon kissed him softly and he focused on that because it was something uniquely them. Siwon still kissed much too inexperienced and even though he complained he loved it and he opened his mouth so he could kiss back and feel even just that gentle bump of teeth that reminded him that this was Siwon.
He was dimly aware of Siwon straddling him but he was too focused on wrapping his arms around Siwon’s shoulders and pulling them chest to chest. Until of course, Sungmin felt Siwon positioning his cock, and start to sink down.
He moaned into the kiss and Siwon was panting. They broke the kiss so Siwon could kneel above him, slowly sinking onto him over and over again. Sungmin watched, wide eyed for a moment as Siwon’s wings flared and he began to actually move. He gripped his hips, trying to help him balance but soon he couldn’t even do that and his hands fell limp to the side.
Siwon tried to go gentle, Sungmin was sure, but by the time he could focus all he noticed was how hard and fast Siwon was riding him and it felt good. Really good. Sungmin moaned, toes practically curling as he watched Siwon’s wings spread and it helped ground him around the pleasure because he had something to focus on why Siwon fucked himself on him and he really, really didn’t want to come just yet. Not yet. This needed to last.
He moaned and snapped his hips to meet Siwon’s, hands coming up to wrap around his cock and Siwon gasped, hips stopping so he could feel Sungmin’s grip. He bucked his hip up, and Siwon clenched around him.
Sungmin came with a curse and he felt Siwon’s come coat his hand. He let out a sigh, crashing from the high and all he could do was stare at the ceiling for a moment as Siwon pulled himself off of him.
“Did I hurt you?” Siwon asked, and Sungmin distantly realized he came off his post-orgasmic high really quick. He would have to do something about that next time.
He rolled over, fingers playing with Siwon’s feathers as he shook his head. “I’m fine,” he breathed out and it seemed to calm Siwon. He waited a moment, because he wanted this part to come out just right. “Next time, can we be more spontaneous?”
Siwon blinked at him as he pulled the covers up over them. “Is this spontaneous going to happen tonight?”
Author: kayevelyn
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Simin
Rating: +17
Summary: Siwon and Sungmin's first time. From umberela's Wing!fic
Notes: For umberela for finishing her fic \o//// Because I really do adore her, and I loved helping her even if she wasn't always sure she wanted my help XD Congrats bb :DDD Also, title is caused by this:
umberela: ....for some reason i just got this image of siwon playing celine dion :| when he and sungmin try to bang :|
When they finally decided to do it, Sungmin didn’t tell anyone. Heechul had been hounding him about it, in his own way gently, because he wanted to make sure they both weren’t overstepping any boundaries. But they had been living together for almost seven months now and it just finally felt right. They had talked about it before, Siwon always the cautious one, and he kept promising Sungmin that he could wait, really it wasn’t that important. Him being in good working order, healthy and happy was more important than the erections that Sungmin heard him take care of each morning and each evening.
Siwon had finally let him help, in the bathroom, on nights when the sounds of Siwon whimpering got to be too much and he just had to see what was going on. He felt useless, his hands unable to grip just right because of the way his fingers had mended, but Siwon kissed him deep underneath the stream of water and Sungmin was able to ignore the heavy weight of his drenched clothing as Siwon thrust shallowly against his palm.
He told Siwon he in bed, the day after he was finally able to keep his eyes open the majority of the time. He needed to take that plunge while he still had the courage to say it. He twisted his hand in Siwon’s shirt as he whispered softly into his chest. “I think, tonight. If you wouldn’t mind.”
Siwon wrapped his arms around Sungmin tightly and he tensed on instinct but then relaxed as Siwon rubbed his back and nodded sleepily into his shoulder.
Sungmin was glad he didn’t say anything, though as the day wore on he found his nerves winding tight. He looked over the draft for his proposal six times before Siwon finally ushered him out of the house so they could get dinner. Sungmin barely noticed the looks Siwon got anymore, and the ones he did notice, mostly the ones from men, he could barely focus on because Siwon kept his hand on the small of Sungmin’s back most of the trip. Sungmin could barely breathe, he was so aware of Siwon.
Siwon stopped at the corner store on the way back to their apartment, and Sungmin waited outside while Siwon went in and bought something. Sungmin didn’t realize what it was until he saw the bouquet of flowers and he blushed because it was sappy and romantic and he felt himself falling in love with Siwon all over again.
The flowers were put into a vase once they got home, on their bureau, though Sungmin saw the contemplative look in Siwon’s eye.
“Maybe next time,” Sungmin said with a laugh. He was very conscious of their position all of a sudden. His eyes flicked to the open door, a habit he still couldn’t break and he felt guilty as Siwon followed the gaze.
“I’m going to use the shower,” Siwon finally said, stepping out of the room and Sungmin swallowed.
It gave him time to think, and time to gather his courage. The shower came on full blast and Sungmin slowly peeled his shirt off. It had been a few days since he had let Siwon touch him; he regretted that fact just a bit. The pants followed, and he was hesitant to step out of his boxers.
He was still standing in them when the shower shut off and he wondered how long he had been standing there, nervous out of his mind. He pushed his boxers down as he heard the bathroom door click open and he steeled himself because once Siwon stepped into the bedroom Sungmin was on him.
Siwon seemed surprised, and Sungmin used that to his advantage, hand cupping the back of his neck to pull him down. Siwon learned quickly though and he maneuvered them to the bed. Sungmin’s thighs hit the back of the bed and he gasped as he fell back, Siwon caging him in with his arms as they kissed.
He sucked in a deep breath, breaking the kiss as he looked into Siwon’s eyes. They were dark and it made Sungmin shudder and he pulled Siwon back for another kiss. He gasped as Siwon lifted him up and pushed his further back on the bed, and he gave Siwon’s shoulders a gentle shove, needing space. Siwon gave it to him, looking at Sungmin carefully.
He took two big gulps of air, before reaching to kiss Siwon again. Siwon returned the kiss, repositioning himself so he could lay back. It took Sungmin a few minutes to finally work up the nerve to stop focusing on the kissing, and actually move his hands, and he felt his own cock twitch in excitement at the thought of touching Siwon again.
His fingers moved experimentally down Siwon’s neck, to his chest where he had never taken much time to explore. His lips followed because he wanted this to be good for Siwon; Siwon was already giving him so much by letting him take his time. He sighed and carefully wrapped his lips around one nipple. Siwon let out a gasp and Sungmin felt his arm twitch and grab hold of the sheets instead of his hair.
Sungmin was grateful and he swirled his finger around Siwon’s other nipple to show his thanks. He moved down his chest carefully, and slowly, taking his time to steel himself for what he was going to do. Siwon still smelled like soap and Sungmin felt torn by it, because he liked the smell of Siwon, musk and all, but it made it easier to move passed Siwon’s hip and watch himself wrap his hand around Siwon’s half hard erection.
He swallowed, not used to that reaction and he had a moment of his inner voice screaming loudly that Siwon didn’t want this, and that he had done something wrong. He glanced up at Siwon, with his eyes screwed shut and his throat tense and Sungmin let out a breath as he realized that he hadn’t done anything wrong, Siwon would have told him.
He stroked, watching his hand and Siwon’s face at the same time. His chest expanded with each pant he let out and Sungmin loved seeing how his breathing got faster as his hand sped up. Siwon’s cock was now fully hard and Sungmin could barely breathe as he leaned forward, licking the tip of Siwon’s cock with his tongue.
Siwon bucked and he let out a curse. Sungmin blushed, afraid to do more as he saw how tightly Siwon’s fingers wrapped in the sheets. He liked the taste though, and so he pressed his lips around the head, careful, and super aware of how Siwon’s thighs twitched and he let out a curse.
“Sungmin,” he pleaded as Sungmin pulled back, releasing Siwon’s cock so he could grab the lube from the side table. He needed to do this now while his nerves were up.
Siwon watched, cock twitching as Sungmin applied too much lube to his fingers, and Siwon swiped some onto his own fingers, helping Sungmin prep him. Sungmin watched Siwon’s fingers push into himself and his hand dropped to his own cock. He stroked in time with Siwon and when Siwon pulled his fingers out he nodded, allowing Sungmin to press his cock against him.
Sungmin took a deep breath and closed his eyes, afraid to watch Siwon’s face because it had to hurt, he thought, even with the tight heat wrapped around his cock as he sunk forward. When he was fully inside, he carefully pulled back, resting his palms on Siwon’s hips.
Siwon moaned and Sungmin’s eyes snapped open and he just had to watch because the sounds Siwon was making were getting increasingly more desperate as he pulled back slowly and pushed forward again.
His knees were already starting to hurt and even through the haze of being inside Siwon the pain was there. He tried to put it out of his mind, and tried to focus on Siwon because his erection was there and Sungmin wanted it to stay there, and he if he stopped it would stop and this would be a failure.
“Sungmin.” Siwon’s voice broke through the pain and Sungmin stopped.
His knees were shaking and he realized that Siwon was pulling away and no, this could not be a failure.
“You’re in pain.”
Sungmin felt stupid because there were tears welling up in his eyes and he wasn’t that type of person, he had no reason to be crying because it was only a little bit of pain against getting better, and he needed this. Siwon needed this.
“Doesn’t matter,” he muttered, trying to shift so he could be back between Siwon’s thighs but Siwon grabbed him, tossed him onto his back and for a split second he wasn’t there in their room and it scared him.
“Sungmin, I love you.” It was said with too much care and tenderness and Sungmin couldn’t fight him because he was slack jawed and thinking maybe Siwon crossed a boundary somewhere as his wrists were held by his hands.
“You.” His eyes darted to his wrists and Siwon pulled his hands away quickly but he didn’t stop hovering above him.
“I love you. This isn’t supposed to hurt you. You’re supposed to enjoy it.”
“I was,” Sungmin said lamely, and his cock twitched to show that he had been, on some level.
Siwon wrapped his fingers around his cock and Sungmin tensed, barely relaxing as Siwon began to stroke with strong hands. “Relax,” Siwon said. “I love you.”
Sungmin gasped as Siwon kissed him softly and he focused on that because it was something uniquely them. Siwon still kissed much too inexperienced and even though he complained he loved it and he opened his mouth so he could kiss back and feel even just that gentle bump of teeth that reminded him that this was Siwon.
He was dimly aware of Siwon straddling him but he was too focused on wrapping his arms around Siwon’s shoulders and pulling them chest to chest. Until of course, Sungmin felt Siwon positioning his cock, and start to sink down.
He moaned into the kiss and Siwon was panting. They broke the kiss so Siwon could kneel above him, slowly sinking onto him over and over again. Sungmin watched, wide eyed for a moment as Siwon’s wings flared and he began to actually move. He gripped his hips, trying to help him balance but soon he couldn’t even do that and his hands fell limp to the side.
Siwon tried to go gentle, Sungmin was sure, but by the time he could focus all he noticed was how hard and fast Siwon was riding him and it felt good. Really good. Sungmin moaned, toes practically curling as he watched Siwon’s wings spread and it helped ground him around the pleasure because he had something to focus on why Siwon fucked himself on him and he really, really didn’t want to come just yet. Not yet. This needed to last.
He moaned and snapped his hips to meet Siwon’s, hands coming up to wrap around his cock and Siwon gasped, hips stopping so he could feel Sungmin’s grip. He bucked his hip up, and Siwon clenched around him.
Sungmin came with a curse and he felt Siwon’s come coat his hand. He let out a sigh, crashing from the high and all he could do was stare at the ceiling for a moment as Siwon pulled himself off of him.
“Did I hurt you?” Siwon asked, and Sungmin distantly realized he came off his post-orgasmic high really quick. He would have to do something about that next time.
He rolled over, fingers playing with Siwon’s feathers as he shook his head. “I’m fine,” he breathed out and it seemed to calm Siwon. He waited a moment, because he wanted this part to come out just right. “Next time, can we be more spontaneous?”
Siwon blinked at him as he pulled the covers up over them. “Is this spontaneous going to happen tonight?”