Mama is driving me crazies... she's drinking so heavily, and spent $50 on sushi tonight claiming she "needed" it because it was "comfort food" and I was like "how is gaining weight going to make you feel better?" and she threw her cup at my head... I don't even think she remembers doing it, she was drunk. She claimed last night that we were " ( Read more... )

Feeling like SHIT. I don't even know why... I never have a reason, I just like to get snarky sometimes I guess ( Read more... )

Y'know, still down, but also contemplating what fun I have in my life... I said to KElly before I left that I Was gonna go sneak a ciggie in the back room, and that I only like saying that cuz in my head I'm talkin in an English Accent... and then I got to thinking aboot pretending I was scottish in Calgary and making that guy explain public ( Read more... )

I'm so irritated at... most of the people in my life. My family drives me nuts with their stupidity obesity childish veiws of me. My friends arn't friends but little imps I watch and am amused by, but can't escape because then I would be alone ((and that's just too much of a bad thing, isn't it?)) The only people I ever want to see are Kelly, Angel ( Read more... )

Just finished shoveling the drive... thinking about a lot, and I'm freakishly content. It's suprizing how much time you have to yourself when you're not listening to the sound of your own voice ( Read more... )

Lately I've been fantasizing about thin, smooth wrists.. how much does it cost to have scars removed? Is it even possible? I always thought I'd want to remember pain, but recently all I've wanted was to forget it. Forget any hurt, any injustic, and just go one with my life, without people asking me "Why"... without ME asking me "why ( Read more... )

So tierd! Had Socials 11 exam today *preens* Oooohoho! Guess who passed? I for shure did! I know I did! I WILL RULE YOU ( Read more... )

So tierd! Had Socials 11 exam today *preens* Oooohoho! Guess who passed? I for shure did! I know I did! I WILL RULE YOU ( Read more... )

Four hours untill my fast and VOS. No, I don't consider msn "talking". I started slow today, gradually quieting untill I was actually... well... quiet ( Read more... )

I want to be a snake.

All smooth scales,

and ridgeless hips.

I want no bumps to marr the serpant
(in me in me)

I want no bruises to make me see
(see the ugly ugly)

When i crawl across the mirror

There will be nothing but beauty
(beauty)
'Hello wings, how are you today ( Read more... )