Vanishing

[sagescorpion]

It's official. My dad is dead. This is crazy. I know it happened a little over a month ago but it's still not reality to me sometimes. So intangible. So strange. In the darkness of my room while I'm trying to fall asleep, sometimes I get flashes in my head of him during his last few days and then flashes of him dead in the casket at the wake

Comments

[clearerblue]

Sometimes I feel very disconnected from the reality that's supposedly around me. Maybe it's somewhat similar to what you're describing. Depending on my state of mind, this disconnect can either be uncomfortable or plain frightening. I have this, perhaps irrational, fear that maybe I'm the only thing that exists and everything around me is unreal. Even though I know at one level that I have parents and friends, there's no feeling of connectedness. I feel pretty helpless and isolated during those times.

[mojo415310]

i think we stay alive because, even though we feel like it's pointless, we still hold onto the hope (whether you admit it to yourself or not) that the next day will be better. my two cents. *shrug*

you are in my prayers.

[robotdre]

kharma. you can only have light after darkness and dispair has run its path.. hit me up if you need a friend.
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