Well I didnt go to bed til almost 7 am.. Found out my friend ended up somewhere she shouldnt have.. But she still could have called.. Im still debating weather or not to go out tonight... *sigh* Late lastnight around 4 I needed somone to talk to and i didnt have a callin card so i called jay and we talked for hours and I told him EVERYTHING.. good ( Read more... )

Well I was havin a good day.. I went to old navy in alex and found a cute pair of jeans for 8 bucks. i couldnt believe it.. I was havin fun with my friend and then I came home and got into it with jay again.. needless to say he apologized and im givin him one more chance.. Then if things dont get better im gone.. im tired of hurtin and im tired of ( Read more... )

Well jay is gonna be gone for another week... I miss him yet i dont.. We've been figihting again.. I dont know how much more of this fighting i can take.. Im so depressed latley and sexuallly frustrated.. I miss my friends etc.. Im so excited about how much xander has grown.. Im happy that my dad is comin down on the 19th.. Then on the 20th is my ( Read more... )

Well it was an ok day except this morning... Jay and i got into it again.. Im so tired of the BS its not even funny.. Im almost to the point im ready to leave.. Im tired of cryin and hurting.. I am willing to go to counciling with him and try to work things out but im gettin to where im done... like he always tells me "there is the door dont let it ( Read more... )

Well its been a pretty good day.. went to the commissary to go shoppin.. Didnt spend all taht much like50 bucks.. man the last couple days have been flyin by... i cant believe its finally gettin cool!!!! I didnt think we'd have cold weather til like jan or feb... Jay is leavin to go to AZ tomorrow for 2 weeks:( I kinda wish he wasnt goin but ( Read more... )

Well Its been a great day so far.. I know ive not wrote in this thing for a few days but been busy.. Jay had staff duity from 9 am to 9 am this morning.. Was good to have some time apart.. :) Talked to my good buddy from TX for a while ;) He's such a sweetheart and I talked to my friend From massachusetts he's a cop up there and I enjoy talkin to ( Read more... )

Well lastnight jay and i got into it again.. I told him i was gonna go take a shower around 12 midnight and then after i got out we'd watch a movie.. well after i finished my shower and stuff i went in the living room and he wasnt in ther so I thought he was out smokin well he wasnt there either.. then I come in the puter room and there he was.. ( Read more... )

Well i finally broke down and gave in .. Im goin to the dr today.. cant take it anymore.. I thought i'd feel better by now but ya know i dont.. Well that and xander has a appt today too so his is at 10:00 and mine is at 1:00.. God i hope they giveme some good shit.. The army is known for givin out meds like there candy.. but hey it works.. gotta ( Read more... )

Well jay is finally home:) i was so excited.. I didnt even think i missed him but i really did we 've actually been gettin along.. he's been so nice since me and xander are sick.. we go to the dr on thursday.. I got so much on my mind but its a good day.. goin to alexandria in a few min.. takin xander and goin with gunner and vicky.. :) I'll write ( Read more... )

I hate being sick.. I think i got strep throat again.. and on top of it all xander isnt feelin good either he has a dr appt thursday.. poor baby was up til 12:30 or so this morning.. I am exhausted.. I wish jay would get home.. I cant sleep w/out him or just havin someone in bed next to me period.. im so spoiled for that.. lol.. I really am excited ( Read more... )