Hate

[sailoraustralia]

A fanfic (I guess? More like an abstract stream of thought) from the POV of Prince Dimande, re: NQ Serenity. It's very short (about 300 words). Triggers for violence and possibly anything you might imagine could come from Dimande thinking about NQ Serenity. It's not humourous (at least, not intentionally).


I
hate you
more than I have ever
loved something before

I want to take you, to make you mine, to own you completely and utterly and
break each and every part of you
into little
insignificant
pieces
I want to hold you in my arms and love you
just to twist my hand and snap you
in two
I want to have you and protect you just to know I will shred you, I want to
slowly
take you away from yourself
little piece by piece
I want you to loathe me and despise me and adore me, I want you to cry as I throw you
I want you to love me and hate me with those beautiful eyes, I want you to
I want you
I
cannot stand you
I cannot stand to be
without you
I want to hurt, I want to hurt you, I need to hurt you
I want to protect you and keep you
to hurt you more and more
And I want you to love me as I hurt you and hate me as I hurt you
as I hurt you
I want you to look at me with sad eyes of someone
who has been betrayed, as I hurt you
I want you to look at me with the anger of someone
who has always known
I would

I look at you and in my chest there is a burning, overflowing sensation that gurgles up my throat and through my mouth against my teeth until I want to
take you and hold you forever or
throttle your pretty
little
neck
and break your pretty
little
face
Into tiny, insignificant pieces

I hate you, I hate everything about you
I love you, I love everything about you
I hate you
I love you
they are the same

/hamfisted