Thank you, Grace.

[saintcynr]

Your love has given me the strength to overcome things I'd never dreamed I'd beat. I owe you my life. I would have certainly killed myself before now if I didn't have you to be patient and show me the bright side, to urge me to keep fighting. I can never adequately thank you, I'm sure, but I hope I bring you some joy in this world that can seem

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[saintcynr]

And yes, I'm fine. No worries. :)

[saintcynr]

It sucked at the time, but after a couple hours, I see now that it was one of the best things that could have happened. Yeah, I was a wreck for a while, but I'm not now. Something like that in the past would have fucked my whole month up. Now, I feel those old pains, grieve, and move on. Also in the past, I would have broken out of all bounds and cursed that person a new ass and made it way worse by being a jerk. I wasn't even tempted this time, just sorry for the misunderstanding and the way things are sometimes.

Come what come may, I do keep trying. Thank you for helping me so danged much.

[chessdev]

*sniff*

Dude -- you're making the rest of us guys look bad when youshow your sensitive side like this...

8-)

[saintcynr]

Well, it's only fair, lol. I make myself look bad with some regularity. Onward and Upward. :)

[jeanineers]

It says a lot about your personal strength, and the strength you two have together, that you post such strong and personal feelings for others to share.

[saintcynr]

Well, I've hidden things for a long time because they're just too damned raw for me to bear humiliation over. Ultimately, though, that strategy has been a failure. I can't worry about what Joe Public thinks, because Joe Public doesn't know my life and circumstances, just as I don't know his. Further, Grace deserves to have her generosity pointed out...I don't think anyone else could stand me. It really is a feat on her part. :)

Feels good to let some things go. I've been carrying too much too long, and the only person that hurts is me.

Thanks, Neens.