Time Travel

[saintmediocrity]

I wonder what my life would be like right now if I would've made a different decision at that pivotal moment.

Guess that's the beauty of it.

Comments

[interpreted]

what decision?

[saintmediocrity]

At one point I had the option to leave GCS. I probably should have. But then again, it could have been for the worst. We'll never know now

[interpreted]

i mean, i wish i'd demanded to leave GCS back in ninth grade. but i didn't, & we stayed there & got fucked up. but you never know, maybe another school would have fucked us up worse.

i like who you are, despite GCS. & i like who i am, despite GCS. theres no point it wishing it was different (although i do about once a week, hahahah).

[saintmediocrity]

yeah, i know what you're saying. i just wonder who i would be if i weren't as shy, and was more outspoken. and grew a pair of balls. i keep so much in, and it really drags me down more than need be. i know i would feel better about myself, but i would probably be a dickhead.

i dont think i could have seen us in another setting. i know we'd have done fine at say a public school, but its hard to imagine you know? trying to imagine either of us as different people just conjures up a weird feeling.

i do like who both of us are though. its that whole thing about becoming who we're supposed to be i guess. i mean, i do hate that i got the image i did at GCS, but i think it adds another dimension to me in the sense that when i do something unexpected, it catches attention or maybe a little intrigue.

but being out of there has allowed us to change so much. its funny when you think back to when we both wore glasses (i know you didnt for long, but still) and were the really quiet kids. haha, i guess that's what time does for us.