feels like I'm in love ( Read more... )

If you knew
what would you do
would you be cold
would you be astonished

you're my crutch
though you are different from whom I wish you to be
all I want is
a look
maybe a smile
maybe a word of kindness
to end this ignorance

I really want to be your friend
let me enter your world
if you knew
if only you knew...

silence lingers here
like heavy curtains made of velvet
'he's the sweetest taste of sin'
eyelids close without my kiss tonight...

On this day of black sky
I'm trying to revive
but the heart beat refuses
pressure in my head
makes me long for nicotine
I can't focus
I can forgive
I can't forego.

Pain
Sex
Cigaretts.

I will fuck you recklessly.

the endless torture goes on
rushing through life without rest
one fight is done
fighting another
fighting each other

No sleep
No calls
Nothing in return

Love is always followed by pain
before
in between
and after
because there is nothing good
without the bad

One shot of my loaded gun
and Captain Marvel perished
because dissapointing love must die
I am not the kind of person that can only give

For this
I'm leaving
taking pictures off my wall

When suddenly I am at a place
from which I see how small you are

Reality
is not so bad, is it?

In the bitterly cold night
a spotlight on your bare, husked soul
clinged to a microphone stand
because it is all you have...

A cautious look beyond protective arms
hiding innocence
his shoulders tremble softly...
until in the bright, sharp moonlight

his soul breaks.

The young child, born in a glass box, always lived without being able to stretch out her crippled limbs ( Read more... )

crucify
and raise me
to the podium

drown me
in a rush of endorphin
the violent red
the passionate red
this is my world beyond limits