Letter from Shishou.
Kotetsu-san and Izumo-san arrived with Tsunade-shishou's letters. I was surprised there was one meant just for me.
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And ambassador. ME?! I'm not even really sure what that means or what I'm supposed to do! Does this mean I announce myself as an ambassador, or that I just do my best to act as Konoha's example? The first sounds a little presumptuous, and if this news was only to me, then Kakashi-sensei or the others may not know about it. So I guess I shouldn't announce it...
But if I just try and represent Konoha without saying anything, then who's to really say people will pay attention to my example and not the other's? There's no doubt that Naruto definitely stands out the most out of all of us. ...He's probably a better choice anyway. While sometimes a little brainless, Naruto's has the strongest heart I know. The kind that people should really look towards.
Besides, serving as an ambassador sounds like something the Hokage should do and know, and isn't it Naruto that's always ranting about becoming Hokage? *sighs* ...I won't tell him that Tsunade-shishou picked me as "ambassador" and try and hint to him that he should practice his diplomacy for fulfilling his dream of becoming Hokage one day. Hopefully that'll work.
I'm too busy being a ninja and a medic to be an ambassador anyway!
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Although... what Tsunade-shishou said... It's probably a good time for me to hear this from somebody.
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[More Private Thoughts]
"Don't concern yourself with Sasuke's presence there and concentrate fully on this assignment. I'm counting on you, Sakura."
That's what she wrote in her letter to me. She must really know me better than I thought... I already knew this is what I should be doing. And I have been trying to do it! ...But...
It's hard to do... when I don't really know what's going on. A part of me wants to know; REALLY wants to know and HEAR it from him myself! The other part of me.......
The other part of me keeps winning out, and every time I'm near Sasuke-kun and Temari... I run away. Because I'm afraid they WILL tell me something that'll... that will... really be hard to hear. And I... don't know if I'm ready to hear it yet.
.....
Which is stupid. Because Sasuke-kun might have finally made a choice; one he's always had the right to make. And because I told myself over two years ago that I would stop chasing after him so hard so I could be stronger; even if it allowed him to forget about me. Because over two years ago I decided to Be A Ninja over being a girl. ...Because I realized Sasuke-kun wasn't the only one I cared about.
So all this self-pity? All this worrying? All this drama and crying and angst... I practically set things UP to turn out this way, and now I'm complaining?! It's stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid!!!
............which fits me perfectly. I should get Ino over here so she can rub it in my face.
Sakura no baka.
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It's time to get busy. Not just with working at the hospital either, but with using Suna's resources to learn how I can be a BETTER medic. There's research to do and things to learn! Methods to explore and master! Medicines to discover and create!
Stand back, Suna! From now on, most of you will only be able to see my back. You haven't even begun to see what Haruno Sakura can do for you yet!! SHANNYARO!!
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[Private]
And ambassador. ME?! I'm not even really sure what that means or what I'm supposed to do! Does this mean I announce myself as an ambassador, or that I just do my best to act as Konoha's example? The first sounds a little presumptuous, and if this news was only to me, then Kakashi-sensei or the others may not know about it. So I guess I shouldn't announce it...
But if I just try and represent Konoha without saying anything, then who's to really say people will pay attention to my example and not the other's? There's no doubt that Naruto definitely stands out the most out of all of us. ...He's probably a better choice anyway. While sometimes a little brainless, Naruto's has the strongest heart I know. The kind that people should really look towards.
Besides, serving as an ambassador sounds like something the Hokage should do and know, and isn't it Naruto that's always ranting about becoming Hokage? *sighs* ...I won't tell him that Tsunade-shishou picked me as "ambassador" and try and hint to him that he should practice his diplomacy for fulfilling his dream of becoming Hokage one day. Hopefully that'll work.
I'm too busy being a ninja and a medic to be an ambassador anyway!
[/Private]
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Although... what Tsunade-shishou said... It's probably a good time for me to hear this from somebody.
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[More Private Thoughts]
"Don't concern yourself with Sasuke's presence there and concentrate fully on this assignment. I'm counting on you, Sakura."
That's what she wrote in her letter to me. She must really know me better than I thought... I already knew this is what I should be doing. And I have been trying to do it! ...But...
It's hard to do... when I don't really know what's going on. A part of me wants to know; REALLY wants to know and HEAR it from him myself! The other part of me.......
The other part of me keeps winning out, and every time I'm near Sasuke-kun and Temari... I run away. Because I'm afraid they WILL tell me something that'll... that will... really be hard to hear. And I... don't know if I'm ready to hear it yet.
.....
Which is stupid. Because Sasuke-kun might have finally made a choice; one he's always had the right to make. And because I told myself over two years ago that I would stop chasing after him so hard so I could be stronger; even if it allowed him to forget about me. Because over two years ago I decided to Be A Ninja over being a girl. ...Because I realized Sasuke-kun wasn't the only one I cared about.
So all this self-pity? All this worrying? All this drama and crying and angst... I practically set things UP to turn out this way, and now I'm complaining?! It's stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid!!!
............which fits me perfectly. I should get Ino over here so she can rub it in my face.
Sakura no baka.
[/Private]
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...
It's time to get busy. Not just with working at the hospital either, but with using Suna's resources to learn how I can be a BETTER medic. There's research to do and things to learn! Methods to explore and master! Medicines to discover and create!
Stand back, Suna! From now on, most of you will only be able to see my back. You haven't even begun to see what Haruno Sakura can do for you yet!! SHANNYARO!!