Silence is golden
But I think it's going to kill me now.
Everything I've seen never seems to fill me now.
No one told me that the world could fall through.
All right, I give in, I will dance with you just this one time.
And all night we will turn and spin, then stand eye to eye at the sunrise.
Graduation last night...Left the house at 5:30, got to the Pavilion around 5:50 or so. There was already a huge line even though the whole thing didn't start until 7. I was dreading having to go to the end of the line and end up getting a bad seat...but as I was walking down the line, Tim called my name and I turned to find him nearly at the front of the line. So I slipped in with him and Megan later joined us.
Pink spider....
We talked a bit about how we were going to end up crying and how Tim had no tissues (he'd brought a whole bunch for the moving up assembly.) When the doors opened, the three of us rushed inside and got seats right next to the barricade that separated us from the senior seats (3-4 rows up from where Snow would be sitting, 2-3 up from Wayne, one row back from Joe and Howie.) Brie ended up joining us to, with her camera. In the end, I wound up switching seats with her so she could get better shots with her camera.
I love you honey, I need you honey.
When the seniors started coming in to sit down, we all stood up and there was much yelling and waving from us to the seniors. When Snow came, I showed her the bear that my mom had bought her and she smiled. Then I motioned to indicate that it was for HER and she covered her mouth and looked like she was about to cry. o.o;
Anyway...so I managed to NOT cry during the ceremony. Go me.
I'm so depressed
Afterwards, I gave Snow her bear as she passed by us to leave the Pavilion, was told to find her outside, helped Brie and Megan with closing the tripod...then we all went outside. I pretty much attacked Snow after she attacked Megan. Met her...grandma and grandpa and someone else? Went back to her family's truck with her so she could give me the picture of Kiba she drew me (It's cute. Kiba standing next to a sign that says "I ♥ Kyra". Blushing Kiba is cute, too. Snow likes to put him in situations he hates. Haha~)After hugging Snow a few more times, I ventured off on my hunt for Bre (not Brie) so that I could give her the card I made (I made on for Snow, too). Circled the building twice but could not find her no matter how hard I tried. It sucked. Eventually, I gave up and called my parents to pick me up. Went up to the entrance of the Pavilion parking lot to wait for my dad. After a while, I heard Bre call my name and turned to see her parents' car leaving the parking lot. So I ran over and passed her card through her brother's window and congratulated her. Hopefully I can catch her again on Monday since she's coming to school for a little bit (Probably to get her diploma).
Sooo...Then I went home...and was head-achey...and what-not.
But I'm proud of myself (and Tim) for not crying. Haha.
Now the real test will be if I get to go to Tahoma's graduation and manage to not cry. THAT will be harder than anything. Didn't cry at Ari's graduation, didn't cry last night...but I don't know if I'll be able to avoid crying if I get to see Tahoma's graduation. Really. x__x;
Soo...
Today I babysat again.
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain in the world.
It wasn't bad.I walked over and got followed by a black lab. PJ told me it was the neighbor's dog. Isaac and Noah were alright. They played their Playstation for a while before dragging me outside so they could play. The dog was out there then, too, and Isaac told me his name was Bravo. Bravo kept me happy while they were playing. Hahaha. Though at one point, Noah had thrown a chunk of wood and Bravo spazzed out. He grabbed the wood and started running full-speed around the yard and cul-de-sac. Tripped Noah once and totally bowled Isaac over another time. Luckily Isaac was in the grass because he hit his head on the ground then he fell. After that, though, Bravo was perfectly calm. Wandered around the cul-de-sac a few times but always came back to let me pet him.
Their neighbors on the other side have a dog, too. Also a black lab but he's shorter and fatter (Bravo is tall and rather skinny). The other lab's name is Brolli...Or Brauli or something. I don't know how they spell it. He was cute. Less attention-craved than Bravo but he came over to me twice carrying a chewed up gold, plastic sword hilt so that I could play with him. Unlike Bravo, Brolli/Brauli sat for me and shook my hand. Bravo apparently doesn't shake. Bravo does like to lie right in the middle of the cul-de-sac and have his tummy rubbed. It was cute.
Near the end of the baby-sitting time, a guy from my bus-stop was sparring with Ian with duct-tape-wrapped foam swords...Isaac and Noah wanted to watch and Bravo was over there so we went over to their yard. Isaac and Ian ended up trading Pokemon card while I talked to Bus-stop-guy and his sister while happily petting Bravooo.
*Nods*
Linda came home around then and we talked about Darien (a fifth-grader down the street that most parents around here are worried about but he's apparently a nice kid, despite seeming to possible have some sort of mental disorder. I feel sorry for him.)
I went home just when it decided to start raining...which would have been fine but Bravo followed me home so I felt bad. :/ I hope he went back home after I went inside my house.
So...That's the extent of my last two days. Tonight I'm hoping to get some RPing in, if Lefi's awake enough when she gets back from the bout--and if I don't have to go to bed and get up early for whatever Dad decides we're doing tomorrow...*Mutter* Mom says they're thinking about a movie but really don't know...which means I have no idea what time I need to go to bed and what time I need to get up.
I'm gonna hu-hu-hurry.
That reminds me (what?). I still want to write. I feel like writing something really weird...and/or different...something I don't usually write...but I'm not sure what that would be. I should go prompt hunting again. Prompts are my life-savers because I suck at coming up with ideas on my own.
Lock on the new world.
I never did finish Stennconi. I don't know if I ever will...I sort of lost the motivation when I realized I didn't know what Aimi was going to ask Ince...and when I couldn't find the names of the other two characters. :/ So unless I suddenly get my spark for the story back, it's...on hiatus?
*Shrugs* I think I'll look for prompts after this. I need to write before the motivation and urge goes away.
Can't change this feeling, I'm way out of touch. I can't change this meaning, it means too much. I've never felt so lonely, never felt so good. I can't be the only one misunderstood. I remind myself of somebody else.
Well, on that note, I'm done. Shall post this and go on my prompt-hunt.
*Nods* Love you all! *Hugs*
~Marissa/Kyra/Kia
Kimi ga suki ta, kimi ga suki ta...