Been 9 weeks since i last updated.. I've talked to most of the people that read this LJ recently anyway, but for those who I haven't talked to I apologize
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I'm not friends with you because I pity you. Much the opposite :). We do have things in common, we just never really have the time to talk about them! WoW, doing hard time at Chili's, discussing the other hobbies we never pursue, there's plenty there.
As for Autumn, believe me, I will take total blame for the way she was built. I would like to fix her before next session if you'll let me. When I saw the way she was built, it rather crushed me in a big way. I let you down, and that is something I hate to have happen.
But no, I don't take pity on you, save for a few rare exceptions. You're my friend, and I will continue to consider you as such :)
I didn't mean to place blame on specific people about game.. it was just a general thing.. saying my character sucks was just for emphasis on it i guess. It's not your fault how he's built, I should have been the one taking the time to make the character instead of spending all my time worrying about going to game and being paranoid about pretty much what i posted. Instead i relied on everyone else to do it for me.
Well, I do take responsibility for the fact you did ask me for help and I very callously brushed you off at first. Its not fair and you deserve better from me. I did eventually come around and help, but I was obviously not paying attention to what we were trying to accomplish.
So I'll pick you up a little early saturday and we can get her to where she should be. Ally already said we should, and we will.
Don't sweat it. We all have our little quirks and anxieties. If you're outside your comfort zone, let us know! We'll do everything we can to help. Me, and everyone who's responded, and I'm sure more than even that. :)
Like Brent, I was never friends with you because I pitied you! I'm friends with you because I like you, you're smart and funny and someone I feel like I can talk to, and because you're a good person on top of it all. You have plenty in common with all of us, and if you feel you don't, then, well, we can work with that! Everyone has something in common with other people -- don't let that make you pull away
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I made the post really late last night when i was feeling upset, it didn't really say what i wanted to say.. i don't blame you for how game runs, it's not like it's all up to you on how people play it, it was meant as a general group thing.. and now that i've said something i do regret it, because trying to explain it now is really awkward.
I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately to talk about stuff - my life's been a wreck recently and like you, I've been trying to hide... which got people mad at me.
I love you.
I don't pity you, I don't hang out with you because of pity and never, ever did. You are way too important to me. I'm on AIM almost every night, so if you ever need me for anything, please let me know. Don't ever think we don't want to hang out with you - that's why we wanted you at game to begin with.
Please, please, please talk to me if you need too. I'll do whatever I can for you.
I'm not just gonna re-hash what everyone else has already said (better than me at that), but I will say, don't know if this helps, but Overgrowth did more damage to Morningstar than anyone else in the group, no lie. I went over the math and was like, wow, that is one effective character (if only mine could be that way).
Also, the social anxiety, I know how that can be. When I start getting that way, I tend to retreat from the world and get the same reactions. Believe me when I say, if this group pitied you, we'd find a way to avoid you altogether, not invite you out and try to get you out of the house and whatnot.
I know you're going to anyway, regardless of what I say, but don't worry. Not a single one of us can conceivably be called normal, so your among friends.
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As for Autumn, believe me, I will take total blame for the way she was built. I would like to fix her before next session if you'll let me. When I saw the way she was built, it rather crushed me in a big way. I let you down, and that is something I hate to have happen.
But no, I don't take pity on you, save for a few rare exceptions. You're my friend, and I will continue to consider you as such :)
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So I'll pick you up a little early saturday and we can get her to where she should be. Ally already said we should, and we will.
Don't sweat it. We all have our little quirks and anxieties. If you're outside your comfort zone, let us know! We'll do everything we can to help. Me, and everyone who's responded, and I'm sure more than even that. :)
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I love you.
I don't pity you, I don't hang out with you because of pity and never, ever did. You are way too important to me. I'm on AIM almost every night, so if you ever need me for anything, please let me know. Don't ever think we don't want to hang out with you - that's why we wanted you at game to begin with.
Please, please, please talk to me if you need too. I'll do whatever I can for you.
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Also, the social anxiety, I know how that can be. When I start getting that way, I tend to retreat from the world and get the same reactions. Believe me when I say, if this group pitied you, we'd find a way to avoid you altogether, not invite you out and try to get you out of the house and whatnot.
I know you're going to anyway, regardless of what I say, but don't worry. Not a single one of us can conceivably be called normal, so your among friends.
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