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Sometimes I wish certain people would notice me more. I get attention, but not the good kind. I have this problem with wanting everyone I know to like me. Basically because I think I'm an okay person, and when they think I'm not, I don't understand it. Maybe this stemmed from being a middle child, and not getting enough attention. hah Maybe I'm just selfish. haha Who knows.
I regret so many things I've done in the past. And that's sad, considering I'm only 18 fucking years old. People would just see me in a better light, I think. Especially my close friends. Everything I regret goes right along with what I was just talking about. I always feel alone and unnoticed. I think I just searched for acceptance...and in all the wrong ways. I would regret it the whole time, but act as if it didn't bother me. I keep telling myself I can stop and that I'm better off, but I always keep doing it. I'm such a fucking loser. I just feel like no one gets me. I don't even get myself most of the time. I want to be so many things but I'm just stuck in this limbo. Everyone around me seems so happy. I seem happy too, but I don't feel it. People have all their shit figured out. I don't. I hate being alone.
I hate big change. And I hate thinking about all of the should've/would've/could've been's. It's depressing.
And to top it all off, I still think about you. And it sucks. Big time.
I regret so many things I've done in the past. And that's sad, considering I'm only 18 fucking years old. People would just see me in a better light, I think. Especially my close friends. Everything I regret goes right along with what I was just talking about. I always feel alone and unnoticed. I think I just searched for acceptance...and in all the wrong ways. I would regret it the whole time, but act as if it didn't bother me. I keep telling myself I can stop and that I'm better off, but I always keep doing it. I'm such a fucking loser. I just feel like no one gets me. I don't even get myself most of the time. I want to be so many things but I'm just stuck in this limbo. Everyone around me seems so happy. I seem happy too, but I don't feel it. People have all their shit figured out. I don't. I hate being alone.
I hate big change. And I hate thinking about all of the should've/would've/could've been's. It's depressing.
And to top it all off, I still think about you. And it sucks. Big time.