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Dec 17, 2006 04:09

i don't know what it is about this time, but the feeling of waking up, looking at the clock, and feeling queasy has become too familiar ( Read more... )

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technomage December 17 2006, 15:49:20 UTC
Owwie (hugs). You're travails of dating are so scarey to me, which may surprised you. I made the decision that ended my own marriage, just as certainly as if I'd said "I want a divorce." That doesn't eliminate the fear of dating and being alone ( ... )

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saltymargarita December 17 2006, 16:15:36 UTC
thank you, Ric. i was seeing him almost 3 months. things were good...relaxed...not pressured. i don't think i'm putting on a mask..in fact that's why it was important to me that he want to read my blog...to know more of the real me. i'm trying to look at each relationship as a learning experience--both of me and what i want in a mate--both these men had qualities i really admire. sometimes things are not going to turn out. it's scary. i feel very lonely right now and want to be held. but i won't go back on match.

let me know if you're anywhere in the neighborhood over the holidays. i hope that you and k work through these things--but i know how kids can put a huge divider...and moms are protective...even when they're wrong.

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