Comments | sam_sational: Warning, read at risk to emotional stability.

sam_sational

Warning, read at risk to emotional stability.

Sep 09, 2005 10:54

It continues to be so hard to post. And this being the first week of school, well there just are not words to describe the emptiness. I've now been on a forced Samantha fast for 132 days. If it were food or water, it would just end. For me it is something almost as vital, yet the body doesn't waste away, the process of being physically alive ( Read more... )

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produceline1 September 12 2005, 05:57:19 UTC

hey there Eddie,
I'm sorry.
I miss your daughter ever so much as well.
Last night...9/10.
our 1-year anniversary of getting in the most trouble EVER.
well atleast the most trouble Ive ever been in... ( :
I miss her. I miss her so so so much.
Senior year, what is supposed to be your most fun and exciting year.
So far, by far, my worst year.
How can anything be fun without Sam?
I just wanted to let you know-I'm listening to what you're writing and although I dont know what you as a parent are going through, I'm whole-heartedly crushed as well.
Love always, Amy Hafer

sam_sational September 12 2005, 15:36:25 UTC

Knowing you and a few others read this (or used to), makes it hard to post sometimes. I sure don't want to add any harsh reminders or emotional downers when you are suppoed to be going forward. I know that is how God would want things, and Sam would also.
I'm sure it is the same for you and others. The empty essence of life as it was expected to be, how plans were going to become memories, how time and efforts and challenges and victories and even quiet meaningful moments; all leave a poisoned void. As her friend, even as close as you were, the dynamic is a little different. Age is also a factor I think. Anyway, a big piece of my release is to shake loose the grief shackled heart by posting here and other places. I usually do so in the evenings and that is when the day long burden of missing Sam is most overwhelming.
I appreciate your support and concern. We Love you also, and treasure the thought of you carrying the nerd torch for the both of you.
Blessings Always.

holliwoodie17 September 15 2005, 04:42:13 UTC

School is most definitly not the same without Sam, I really do miss her smiling face in the halls and by the lockers. LIke amy said i cannot possibly comprehend what it is like for you as a parent, but i know it must be hard. You and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers <3